Horseshoecrab_lover
Horseshoecrab_lover
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Відео

Sketchbook tour (along with new drawings)Sketchbook tour (along with new drawings)
Sketchbook tour (along with new drawings)
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#art #artist #sketchbooktour
Things from my childhood that I didn’t realize were me being transgender(description)Things from my childhood that I didn’t realize were me being transgender(description)
Things from my childhood that I didn’t realize were me being transgender(description)
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These things were along with other things I was feeling too (dysphoria,euphoria,etc) I’m not saying these were me being trans, just some things I think about today that make me question how I didn’t realize sooner that I was trans. #dysphoria #rant #ftm #ftmtransgender #euphoria #art
Reacting to trans meme (this video sucks )Reacting to trans meme (this video sucks )
Reacting to trans meme (this video sucks )
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#transmeme #dysphoria #ftm #rant #ftmtransgender #euphoria #transmascmemes
Talking about what gives me gender euphoriaTalking about what gives me gender euphoria
Talking about what gives me gender euphoria
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#dysphoria #ftm #rant #ftmtransgender #art #euphoria #transeuphoria #pret
Reviewing transgender guide “What’s the T” by Juno DawsonReviewing transgender guide “What’s the T” by Juno Dawson
Reviewing transgender guide “What’s the T” by Juno Dawson
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#transbook #transgender #ftmtransgender #dysphoria #transpride #ftm #guidebook #lgbt
Why I love the trans movie “Cowboys”Why I love the trans movie “Cowboys”
Why I love the trans movie “Cowboys”
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#cowboymovie #rant #dysphoria #ftm #lgbt #transman #ftmtransgender #movie #transfilm
Talking about what makes me dysphoric (ftm pre-)Talking about what makes me dysphoric (ftm pre-)
Talking about what makes me dysphoric (ftm pre-)
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#trans #transgender #lgbt #dysphoria #rant #ftm #art
Talking about how being transgender affects me(+drawing)Talking about how being transgender affects me(+drawing)
Talking about how being transgender affects me(+drawing)
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Basically this is a yap session about my deal with me being trans, like how it affects me and how I found out along with me kinda coping with it by drawing a comic! #transgender #comic #art #lgbt #rant
This is a drawing for @Drawstuff432 !!This is a drawing for @Drawstuff432 !!
This is a drawing for @Drawstuff432 !!
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КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @NoneYobiz.
    @NoneYobiz. 16 годин тому

    People telling you what you wanna hear not what's good for you. Don't F up your body wait until you are older to make life altering decisions. What if you decide your not M later and you already chemically ruined the F part. The folks pushing you towards transition are NOT your friends.- someone who lived alot longer and been thro the sht.

  • @arkisangel
    @arkisangel 2 дні тому

    kewl drawings

  • @zennatarious1057
    @zennatarious1057 Місяць тому

    14:45 bro my friend said the same thing to me but it was js random 💀 he said my fit and casualness made me look like a lesbian, wild

  • @kuttr-654
    @kuttr-654 Місяць тому

    If you ever see this Life is long Be true to yourself so you have no regrets I'm not even lgbtq Just an ally ✨

  • @__anonymous__4533
    @__anonymous__4533 Місяць тому

    Dude, be careful sharing stuff on the internet. Lots of bad people on the internet!

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

      All I posted was me decorating my room more??

    • @arkisangel
      @arkisangel 2 дні тому

      @Horseshoecrab_lover LMAO

    • @arkisangel
      @arkisangel 2 дні тому

      @Horseshoecrab_lover "im plotting... scheming, yes... room decorating, perfect for my plansss 😈😈"

  • @bunnywavyxx9524
    @bunnywavyxx9524 Місяць тому

    so calming to listen to your videos while doing work :))

  • @CaleKennedy-s9t
    @CaleKennedy-s9t Місяць тому

    Is that deadpool and wolverine that’s totally the greatest marvel movie ever🔥

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

      @@CaleKennedy-s9t yes it is!! My family loves the movie lol, I agree

  • @Horseshoecrab_lover
    @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

    8:42 when I was watching this video to make sure there weren’t any mistakes this caught me off guard so badly because I forgot it happened 😭

  • @666...-_-
    @666...-_- Місяць тому

    i love ur drawing and u're so pretty 😭😭 i subscribed u

  • @bl4e3nthousiast
    @bl4e3nthousiast Місяць тому

    0:39 I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE THE SKETCHBOOK IS SO CUTE WHAT😠🙏

  • @bl4e3nthousiast
    @bl4e3nthousiast Місяць тому

    3:24 wait I love the pants

  • @bl4e3nthousiast
    @bl4e3nthousiast Місяць тому

    2:53 stop I love this sm😭😭

  • @OfflineDaemon
    @OfflineDaemon Місяць тому

    Yoooo i love finding more obscure channels like this !! Just pure vibes, not an overload of editing and scripting, its a more fresh way of watching content :3

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

      Thank you!! I don’t like editing videos becuase it’s so time consuming and I just don’t like it lol

    • @OfflineDaemon
      @OfflineDaemon Місяць тому

      @Horseshoecrab_lover I also LOVEEE UR sketchbook I used to religiously collect those from 5 below when I was little x3

  • @Werjoj
    @Werjoj Місяць тому

    THEY'RE SO PRETTY

  • @pupplechick
    @pupplechick Місяць тому

    14:14 is so nice omg + the last 3

  • @ertjg
    @ertjg Місяць тому

    if you're male brained go study structural engineering, if you combine it with your drawing skills you'd be able to erect incredible buildings out of anywhere (that's kinda my missed dream)

  • @smadaf
    @smadaf Місяць тому

    Yes! I do want more videos like this. :) :) :) I could make so many comments on the drawings you showed here and ask so many questions about them; maybe I will do some of that after I've taken care of some of today's chores for tomorrow's holiday. Happy Thanksgiving, Joey! I'm thankful that you're here.

  • @Horseshoecrab_lover
    @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

    Also I might sound nasally since it is cold here lol

  • @kuttr-654
    @kuttr-654 Місяць тому

    That was very informative! First of all you be you ! No one else can comprehend exactly how you feel. Funilly I wasn't getting it either. Now I find that strange of me because I'm the loudest proudest Ally of anything lgbtq human rights type things I know to anyone that will listen and more that don't. Then I got it It's not for me to understand your feelings and situation, but to just be supportive. Somehow I feel I understand more by NOT knowing how you feel. Thanx for that. I wish you well on your journey ! ✨

  • @allister.trudel
    @allister.trudel Місяць тому

    I gained a whole inch around 18-19, you might still grow. A small growth spurt around that age isn't uncommon in AFAB people. Anyway, short kings are great too.

  • @rocketboii9400
    @rocketboii9400 Місяць тому

    4:07 a lot of the idea that cis women and men are built differently in terms of shoulders and hips is not entirely accurate. Muscle definitely changes the width of your shoulders and that body shape generally and in our culture it is much more normalized for men to do weight training for all parts of the body than it is for women. Weight training is definitely something that has helped me to feel less dysphoria as a trans person. It's also very good for building a routine and physical as well as mental health resultingly, I find :)

  • @bunnywavyxx9524
    @bunnywavyxx9524 Місяць тому

    watching men, you realize how they are taught to take up a lot of space and always present themselves as larger/bigger it's so interesting. guys hobbies like hiking, rock collecting etc. you're no different from other guys

  • @smadaf
    @smadaf Місяць тому

    In my opinion, your last video (the meme-reaction one) did not 'suck a lot'. Also, because comments aren't allowed on that one, I'll just say here that something about your look in that one was extra cool: I kind of wish I had your eyes, nose, and lips.

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

      Thank you for telling they were off! My videos somehow always get the comments turned off for whatever reason so I have to fix them. And thank you so much for the compliment!!

  • @joharakiri
    @joharakiri Місяць тому

    So cool of you to share this. And you're not alone in this. It's so important to surround yourself with a supportive community. There are plenty of people out there who will genuinely see you as a boy even pre everything just because you let them know that you are one. But I trust you'll get there ☺

  • @QwertyCaesar
    @QwertyCaesar Місяць тому

    20:00 that's called purging. Pretty common among trans folks and even some gender non-conforming cis folks. At your age it's most clothing and then trying to do some short-term superficial hyperperformance of your assigned gender. When folks get older they often start to burn bridges and cut off relationships and make major life decisions impulsively. A repressing trans woman might join the military. A repressing trans man might decide to get married to someone they barely know or deliberately try to get pregnant. Sometimes there's an outpatient cosmetic procedure. I knew a gal who, and this was a few decades ago, phoned in an anonymous tip to her only queer friend that he had some recreational drugs. She tried to burn that bridge and sever the connection permanently, though luckily she immediately regretted it, phoned the friend, and nothing came of it. Purging is an attempt to make a clean break from, among other things, the painful thoughts you're ruminating over. "I just do X, Y, and Z and I'll stop having these thoughts eventually and be happy." Tends to come from people focusing on things they can't change and regrets they have, making themselves miserable. I've never actually purged but I have dealt a lot with ruminating thoughts - and probably always will. Something that helps is instead of looking at what has happened and drowning in how it hurts is to try to focus on bettering yourself and making yourself the man you want to be focusing on what is within your control. When you begin to take charge you will find there's more things within your power to shape than you previously thought. You are stronger than you think.

  • @QwertyCaesar
    @QwertyCaesar Місяць тому

    It does get better. I know how hard it is right hard, especially with family like that. I know it hurts right now but there's a community of people waiting to welcome you when you're capable of leaving the nest and spreading your wings. The community is far from perfect but there's a lot of amazing people in it.

  • @smadaf
    @smadaf Місяць тому

    Your thing about doing your schoolwork and thereby feeling "like a smart man" really makes me think, about stuff in my own life. Thanks for being thought-provoking!

  • @smadaf
    @smadaf Місяць тому

    You _do_ look cool.

  • @smadaf
    @smadaf 2 місяці тому

    I had not heard of this movie, but I will watch it because of your recommendation. I have now watched three of your UA-cam videos in order, and I will watch all the rest. I listen to every word. There's so much I could say, but I'm not sure when. You have my sympathy and you have my support, and the impression I get is that you have the heart and the brains to figure out what's right for you and to figure out a workable balance of the many different competing parts of being a human being. Thanks for sharing the story of your journey through life, and thanks for making art.

  • @APotatoe324
    @APotatoe324 2 місяці тому

    thank you for posting this video it’s really relatable and validating and it shows you that your not the only one struggling with these issues tysm (:

  • @batinacoffin
    @batinacoffin 2 місяці тому

    I relate so much , I’m also a short trans man with childish feminine features. Thankyou for this video and for sharing your experience, I hope it gets better and please don’t lose hope!!

  • @Ouiouibaguette-o5i
    @Ouiouibaguette-o5i 2 місяці тому

    It’s the first time I see someone that looks the same age as me and being trans boy too and also being in the closet. I also had almost these OBVIOUS signs and parents are still blind. I hope you’re not in the US cause Trump is elected now😭

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      @@Ouiouibaguette-o5i oh trust me I am in the us💔 and in a red state😭

    • @alexrose20
      @alexrose20 2 місяці тому

      ​@@Horseshoecrab_lover sending love 🫂

    • @Ouiouibaguette-o5i
      @Ouiouibaguette-o5i 2 місяці тому

      @@Horseshoecrab_lover Stay strong u have 4 years to survive

    • @ejhstmac8783
      @ejhstmac8783 2 місяці тому

      ​@@Horseshoecrab_lover hold on there #SurvivalIsResistance

    • @ejhstmac8783
      @ejhstmac8783 2 місяці тому

      also if it's possible try moving

  • @bunnywavyxx9524
    @bunnywavyxx9524 2 місяці тому

    you are quite unlucky and im sorry. ive fallen in love with a trans ftm person who has similar features to you and loves crabs. it's a 50/50 he passes but also gets misgendered sometimes and it makes me upset. this video helps me understand what he goes through. i dont feel dysphoria but im tall for a girl and have a masculine shape and I dislike it, I also dont like being taller than him. im bi and on the aroace spectrum but his gender fluidity negatively affects my attraction. like I dont know.

  • @Isab3lla1zC00l
    @Isab3lla1zC00l 2 місяці тому

    If it makes you feel a little better, my brother's friend is around 5'3 and he's around 20.

  • @alicecubensis1221
    @alicecubensis1221 2 місяці тому

    It breaks my heart hearing you struggle with so much dysphoria and not getting any support from your family. I relate so much to your experience of dysphoria and body issues (although inverted somewhat, as I'm transfem). Especially the voice! But luckily testosterone will help a lot for voice if you do eventually go that route. You could look very masculine later in life! I know it might not seem like there's much hope now, but you have a whole life ahead of you! There will be time. Look for trans support groups and find community. And channel it into your art, it looks so good! There are so many short cis guys that share a lot f your same struggles, btw, so you're not alone there lol. It will get easier! keep on keeping on! You are so awesome!

  • @thecatlurking
    @thecatlurking 2 місяці тому

    I also realized I was trans when I was around your age. I was lucky enough to find a queer youth group that was a good support system for me. I hope you're able to find your people, and I wish you all the best. 🏳️‍⚧️💖

  • @Reed5016
    @Reed5016 2 місяці тому

    The pipeline from the “not like other girls” or “pick me” to trans guy or non-binary is so real. I’m also ace (not sure about aromantic).

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      @@Reed5016 i find it funny how so many transmasculine and non-binary people had that phase in life!

    • @Ouiouibaguette-o5i
      @Ouiouibaguette-o5i 2 місяці тому

      @@Horseshoecrab_loverI think what may explain it is that kids or pre-teens don’t know how to explain what they like so

    • @bunnywavyxx9524
      @bunnywavyxx9524 2 місяці тому

      I had a girly phase, pick me phase, and am on the aroace spectrum

  • @sometimesclichesaregood
    @sometimesclichesaregood 2 місяці тому

    Ayyyyy, he uploaded!

  • @sometimesclichesaregood
    @sometimesclichesaregood 2 місяці тому

    You okay, Joey? You haven’t uploaded in a minute.

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      @@sometimesclichesaregood yes I am fine! I just haven’t had a good idea of what to make a video about!😓

    • @sometimesclichesaregood
      @sometimesclichesaregood 2 місяці тому

      @@Horseshoecrab_lover Glad everything’s okay! I don’t know, I like your talk videos in general. You could always just share some random experiences-even vents. I find your videos really relatable. 🤷

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      @ ofc!

  • @Shmooper_Dooper
    @Shmooper_Dooper 2 місяці тому

    Girl, you are perfect the way you are. You can act and dress however you want, but remember surgeries are permanent and can cause a loss of sensation s*xually and the hormones will be permanent as well. There’s always time ahead of you but you can’t change the past. I’m not a stuck up stooge, or a homophobe or anything like that. Sometimes the truth is just the truth. Sometimes there are multiple truths. Best of luck ❤

    • @alicecubensis1221
      @alicecubensis1221 2 місяці тому

      hey, first off they clearly don't like being referred to femininely, so I think the "girl" comment is highly unwarranted. Nobody needs your permission to act or dress any way, and certainly not for anything else either. I don't know what you're getting at here other than blatant transphobia, that's the "truth". Go read a book or touch some grass

    • @Werjoj
      @Werjoj Місяць тому

      babes u thought u ate fr..

    • @Shmooper_Dooper
      @Shmooper_Dooper Місяць тому

      @ huh?

  • @averiefuchia
    @averiefuchia 2 місяці тому

    I'm so sorry you're stuck in this situation, crawling in your skin, with no support from your family. Consider moving out as soon as you can afford to. For me it was a big step to start expressing myself with no extra pressure. Stay strong!

  • @blackrainbow6126
    @blackrainbow6126 2 місяці тому

    I can't help thinking your mum n dad should see and listen to this video and trully understand and accept your position. That said, I have no idea how they would react. The fact that religion has a presence concerns me as that can often be a problem. I do wish you strength and patience. There will come a time you will have place of your own where you feel comfortable expressing yourself in your own space. Listening to this video reminds me of my past feelings.. Being trapped and occasionally 'trying' to be a man. It's remarkable how similar MtF and FtM trans worries are. All the concerns you have about voice and body shape are what I experience in reverse. Hating my manly shape without having breasts or hips, my low voice. Things will get better for you in time. Just hang on in there and grow your confidence as a young adult.

  • @pinwrll1345
    @pinwrll1345 2 місяці тому

    you remind so much of my friends little brothers, crazy how people can’t tell you’re a guy immediately honestly, very teen boy mannerisms n all that

  • @fotoschopro1230
    @fotoschopro1230 2 місяці тому

    do you have autism?

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      I’ve never been diagnosed with it so can not say

    • @fotoschopro1230
      @fotoschopro1230 2 місяці тому

      @@Horseshoecrab_lover ah ok its superficial at best but you remind me a lot of one of my friends who is autistic if it matters to you at all you could get an assessment

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover Місяць тому

      Sorry I never got the notif for this!

  • @stupid98
    @stupid98 2 місяці тому

    man I felt the exact same way when I was 16, and now I'm 19 and it all feels like a bad dream looking back... If I could tell 16 year old me anything, I would say to just heckin go to the gym and eat a shit ton of protein lol. If you lift enough it will seriously transform your body, I know it's easier to gain muscle when you're on T but it's totally possible to do it without it, and it really helped me with my dysphoria, even chest because they start to read as pecs after awhile. If your brothers or dad go to the gym then you could try asking them to show you around it, my dad taught me and he wasn't very accepting of my transition at first but now all we talk about is lifting haha... Though it sounds like your parents are pretty difficult, my dad's side is also Catholic and they don't hate me, they're just kinda weird about it yk? But there are things you can try right now, the worst thing you can do is wait for your life to start, because it's already happening right now and it sucked knowing I spent so much time thinking there was nothing i could do. Also side note I personally love your hair it gives me metalhead vibes, I've been growing my hair out trying to get it like that xP (edit) also another thing is, if you like to sew at all or are open to picking that up, I like to tailor my clothes to fit my form better, so I'd recommend taking some old clothes and experimenting

  • @perfectlymarvellousmusicals
    @perfectlymarvellousmusicals 2 місяці тому

    Im also a closeted trans guy who is pre anything and i never knew anyone else felt that way. In terms of when i look at myself in feminine things I see the man i am trapped and awkward but when i present masculinity all i see is everything wrong with my body

  • @laurenplummer2306
    @laurenplummer2306 2 місяці тому

    That curve is ideal for getting that G-spot stimulation while the clitoral action adds an extra layer.

    • @Nic0Dr4ws
      @Nic0Dr4ws 2 місяці тому

      Girl what?😭 read the room, he’s already dysphoric enough and this almost most definitely won’t help. I find it kinda weird that you commented this on a 16 year olds video where there was NO mention of genitals

    • @ghoulcorpse
      @ghoulcorpse 2 місяці тому

      ​@@Nic0Dr4wsright like what the fuck..??

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      @@Nic0Dr4wsit’s a bot dw😭

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      @@ghoulcorpseit’s a bot so not real but idk why a bot would comment THAT

  • @KamillaMirabelle
    @KamillaMirabelle 2 місяці тому

    Dont know if you know the song "the village" from wrabel i think you will relate to it

    • @Horseshoecrab_lover
      @Horseshoecrab_lover 2 місяці тому

      I do listen to it and I actually relate to it a lot especially a lot of the lyrics

    • @KamillaMirabelle
      @KamillaMirabelle 2 місяці тому

      @Horseshoecrab_lover i think we are many who relate strongly to it ❤️ i love that song. We have a danish non binary artist who have made a song about the feeling of not knowing truely in which category to fit in.. Freja kirk - hvad skal man kalde en som mig? Translated it is called: what do you call someone like me?

  • @Reed5016
    @Reed5016 2 місяці тому

    For me, trying to learn how to fry-scream gives me gender euphoria. I want to start a death-doom metal band eventually (probably in a year or two), and practicing my screaming makes me feel badass. Cringey as that might sound. Lmao.

  • @Reed5016
    @Reed5016 2 місяці тому

    As another short trans masc, I feel you. I’m 5’2, and my height makes me super dysphoric. Also, this is some advice. You’re a man, regardless of what you look like. Regardless of what people tell you. You mentioned how you repress your identity, and try to force yourself to be a girl. I recommend two things. The first is joining a discord server with other trans masculine people in it. The second is to research queer repression. A really good movie that explores queer repression is I Saw The TV Glow. I really recommend watching it. That movie really changed my life, and forced me to accept myself, regardless of what society says. We only get one life, and it’s better to live authentically than pretending to be someone you’re not. Good luck on your journey, dude.