Meissa ☆
Meissa ☆
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it’s late, pull some tarot with me ♡
i hope you got what you needed from this video. drink some water, sleep well + may you dream of many dreams tonight.
blessed be my loves ♡ xx
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Відео

i got lost in a french boiler room (storytime)
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no seriously i had no idea why my parents were so worried about me when i found them, turns out i was missing for over an hour and had literally no clue i was doing anything wrong TxT but seriously they got me one of those child leashes after this… LET. ME KNOW IF U WANT MORE STORYTIME VIDS THO !!!! i have tons of material i’m ready to spill :3 xx
talking about dream jobs but my cats start fighting
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no like i get that they’re “dream” jobs for a reason but what dampened ur spark as a child? did anyone make a weird comment on ur idea that led you to discard the thought forevermore? are u actively achieving ur dreams??? xx
the view from the bottom of the pink bottle
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obvi everyone has a brain that's wired differently and works in a completely unique manner compared to the next. i thought it might do some good to shed a bit more of a spotlight on the exact process my specific train od thoughts go through as i speak of them in real-time~! ft. all of you as my witness, of course ♡ xx
matcha-to yap about
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am i talking too fast?? i don't think so but i did stumble my words a few times which is typically an indicator i need to slow my yap !! also if u say u drink 12oz monster ultra cans i will fall in love with you ♡ xx
shame in the target checkout
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let me know down below if you also feel shame in a similar vein OR if you have any thoughts on the matter, i’d love to hear ur 2¢!! thank you SO MUCH for 300 subs, it literally means the world to me that so many people are interested in this channel, MWAH big hug and kisses ~ !! ♡ xxx
chronically online? hmm maybe !
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i love how i contradicted myself literally within the first 10 seconds of the video BUT I PROMISE ITS WORTH THE WATCH 🙏 so many creators have covered this topic recently so i thought i’d share my personal point-of-view & experience on the matter!! i wanted to mention the repercussions of essentially raising urself on the internet :333 you should totally subscribe for more braindead 3am rambling...
i think i’m incapable of comforting others
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it’s not that i don’t like when ppl cry, it’s just that i get worried about how to react in the best possible manner. everyone is different, the last thing i wanna do is accidentally say the wrong thing and make them feel worse. i’ll always happily lend a shoulder to cry on whenever requested, but understand that i may not be the best and brightest contender. love to u all tho, feel free to ven...
what social media did to me
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social media is a massive part of my life and will continue to be probably forever, but i can’t deny the lasting affects of my constant doomscrolling. when i was on tiktok constantly i had a certain standard (that i set myself) for which i had to uphold myself to online. In reality, my life doesn’t work like that. my friends never cared what i posted on socials, and when i quit tiktok to re-gro...
like sitting ducks
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maybe there’s a disney fast-pass for life? maybe if i was rich enough to buy those in the first place i wouldn’t be in this position smh 😒 no but seriously i appreciate every single one of you who comments on these ramblings of mine, it genuinely means the world to me. i may be able comprehend that i’m not alone in these feelings right now but it’s easy for anyone ( myself) to forget and become...
irrational anger and eggnog
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pry eggnog out of my cold dead hands. is nog the secret cause of my anger? maybe i should write a punk pop song about being angry and drinking eggnog. perhaps the due change i need comes in the form of festive capitalism and angst?? hmm, lots to think about…
feeling frozen
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it can be so easy to feel stuck where you are right now. there’s no guarantee anything will change, especially when you’ve been stuck for a prolonged period of time. i see the pattern, i notice it, so now im gonna try and shift it ~!!
i still watch kids tv shows
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i don’t think i’ll ever stop watching these shows or consuming their related media. it’s okay to admit they’re entertaining!! it’s okay to admit i’m a big fan!! good tv is good tv!!
jack of all trades, master of none
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oftentimes better than a master of one! so go out there and make the best (or worst, there’s a learning curve) metaphorical friendship bracelet you’ve ever seen!! (if ur too busy or lazy i’ll make one for you!!)
am i the devil they advocate for?
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like am i genuinely missing something? why does it seem like i can’t do anything in this house without turning into their favourite villain :’) pls i just wanna drink my celsius in peace i promise i mean no harm 🙏
why i hate the 'devil's advocate'
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why i hate the 'devil's advocate'
literally just a fit check 3
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literally just a fit check 3
crying before my 19th
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crying before my 19th
childhood friendship
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childhood friendship
bestie chit-chat sesh
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bestie chit-chat sesh
frustrations of a london fashion student
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frustrations of a london fashion student
frustrations of a broken nail
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frustrations of a broken nail
dear diary.
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dear diary.
peppermint tea + barbie movie
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peppermint tea barbie movie
jobs are tiring
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jobs are tiring
happy music mood swings!!
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happy music mood swings!!
sunlight at midnight
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sunlight at midnight
literally just a fit check 2
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literally just a fit check 2
crying over school
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crying over school
channel trailer ~
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channel trailer ~

КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @kittyhnns
    @kittyhnns 9 днів тому

    This was super fun (:

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 9 днів тому

      it makes me so happy you enjoyed~!! hmmm do u think i should do more like this? xx

    • @kittyhnns
      @kittyhnns 8 днів тому

      I really like casual videos like this! It would be nice, tarot cards are cool

  • @liverpoolfan73
    @liverpoolfan73 10 днів тому

    honestly I love tarot it has great wisdom on how just to live your life. I don't 100% believe in tarot but the last omen pulling still resonated with me

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 9 днів тому

      ahh i’m so glad you were able to resonate with one !! you make a good point in the wisdom tarot can offer, even for those who don’t fully believe~⋆₊˚⊹ ps. i just want you to know how much i truly appreciate your interactions on my channel. it honestly means the world to me that you take time out of your day to watch, listen, and write genuine responses to whatever i may put out. even if you might think it’s nothing big, i want you to be aware that i cherish and treasure your support; your actions make me smile and are encouraging me to keep making content even if just for one person. very sincerely, i thank you ♡ xx

  • @liverpoolfan73
    @liverpoolfan73 11 днів тому

    i once got locked in a bathroom in my godmother's house when i was 5.

  • @liverpoolfan73
    @liverpoolfan73 15 днів тому

    i mean humans always change overtime so it makes sense that our goals do as well

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 15 днів тому

      i think it’s super fun to hear how exactly people’s goals change overtime !! some ppl won’t like to talk about their previous selves (understandably) so i think lighter discussions like dream jobs give insight on how they’ve grown without needing to be specific !! <3

  • @slumbapawty
    @slumbapawty 15 днів тому

    catfight was the best part of the video

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 15 днів тому

      i was so concerned for a hot moment 😭

  • @liverpoolfan73
    @liverpoolfan73 19 днів тому

    I feel as though learning to not hate yourself is a long journey. I am still trying to fully be my only ally and it is difficult. However, I am sure it is possible I have been making progress I am sure it is possible despite how hard it can be

  • @twinkuphoria
    @twinkuphoria 21 день тому

    istg i thought you were LDshadowlady!! i mean that in a good way!! i love her<33

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 19 днів тому

      this is so flattering omg babe tysm ??? <3

  • @liverpoolfan73
    @liverpoolfan73 21 день тому

    to be honest the only caffeine I drink is Latte everything else is just oj

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 19 днів тому

      i want to be a coffee drinker so bad but just like you i prefer juice </3 maybe 1 day ill like espresso!

  • @Vamptastico
    @Vamptastico Місяць тому

    So relatable

  • @clivenimmo3155
    @clivenimmo3155 Місяць тому

    I think why I've come across this you come across as being real, and that's exactly how I like it, you've got a great mindset for these things, I get that you don't want to post just for the sake of it. Keep doing whatever you're doing.😊

  • @MOBILELEGENG
    @MOBILELEGENG Місяць тому

    seeing u talk with such confidence on camera is making us happy, so many emotion that u bring to this video aswell xd. anw i like ur hair... it's beautiful

  • @kranes8246
    @kranes8246 Місяць тому

    this feels like a facetime in the best way possible, keep yapping queen i love it ✨

  • @mr.llama1016
    @mr.llama1016 Місяць тому

    I relate to this very much. I personally love comforting my friends and such, but I used to sometimes worry about potentially bothering them. Just know that I personally don't mind a lack of comfort, so I am very forgiving to people, even if they discomforted me in some way. I just don't want you to suffer from what I used to suffer from, which is excessive guilt disorder. The backstory behind this excessive guilt I had back in April this year I had is that throughout my time at the University I went to, I was trying my best to make new friends in the cafeterias, but due to my severe social anxiety at the time, I would hesitate to approach people to become friends with them out of fear that I might end up bothering them, so I would instead sit near them without getting too close. On April 12th in the late afternoon, a few of the people I was often sitting near arrived at the table I was sitting at, and these people expressed their concerns they had. They said that what I was doing was making them feel uneasy and that I should refrain from doing it again. I agreed to their concerns, and ever since then, I have been avoiding their presence out of fear that I might end up making them uncomfortable again. I did not end up getting in trouble for doing this and it was only a genuine concern these people had, yet I still felt like what I did was beyond unforgivable. Moreover, I felt so incredibly guilty that I decided to punish myself for it by locking myself in my dorm room for the following weekend (April 13th - 14th), as well as partially starving myself, just as an extra self-punishment. I still went out to the cafeterias to eat breakfast on that weekend, but I did not eat lunch or dinner, even though I had food to eat in my dorm room. I discussed the issue with one of the University professors. I told the professor to let one of the people know that I am very sorry for making them all feel uncomfortable. The professor then said that I should just move on and that such a concern does not deserve so much thought. I just hope they are all doing alright and that my shyness did not traumatize them too much.

  • @vixisee
    @vixisee 2 місяці тому

    real

  • @therealcxmbender
    @therealcxmbender 2 місяці тому

    Bro is so real for this

  • @user-fk5ho5rn3r
    @user-fk5ho5rn3r 2 місяці тому

    It's better to not know how and want to than know how and feel like it's a chore. I don't actually know what makes like this but if my friend is upset, doesn't matter if its like balling there eyes out I feel as if I have to fix it, not emotionally but like if I don't they will no longer be pals with me. I feel inherently disingenuous about it because I just feel uncomfortable the whole time. I would say I rarely do this for people, there have been times I just bluntly asked my brother 'why are you crying' and then ignored him for the rest of it. Being able to at least feel like you should is a good thing and in my eyes that is probably enough to be normal.

  • @datadealerkneelawk8442
    @datadealerkneelawk8442 2 місяці тому

    u remind me too much of myself. have u been tested for autism?

    • @user-fk5ho5rn3r
      @user-fk5ho5rn3r 2 місяці тому

      Gonna be honest thought the same thing, Autism is usually pretty good at emotional empathy and bad at expressing it. Then the not liking being touched when stressed thing. The overthinking that comes with Autism.

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      i love how direct you are, i appreciate you for that fr (not been tested for autism, but i do have adhd) ~

    • @datadealerkneelawk8442
      @datadealerkneelawk8442 2 місяці тому

      @@MeissaMontelle autism and adhd often go together, but autism is usually under-diagnosed in afab peeps

  • @bigtuna9529
    @bigtuna9529 2 місяці тому

    Apparently I’ll click on anything. Never thought I’d reach this level of boredom.

  • @kumorichann
    @kumorichann 2 місяці тому

    i used to be incredibly terrible at comforting as well. But i realized it might just be because of the fact that I never liked surrounding myself with people even before the pandemic began which consequently made me anti-social and anxious. I had friends who cried to me for comfort and i never know what to say or how to say what i wanted to say. It was so awkward that she had to turn to our other friend for comfort instead which is OUCH but also understandable and perfectly acceptable. I figured that questioning is really the only answer. When people are in a vulnerable state they'll just take any questions. People like talking, they like it even more when it's about themselves. I let my friends talk and i'd ask questions. Comforting doesn't have to be all words of comfort but rather just allowing them to talk about themselves. You got this, meissa!! i love your name by the way :3

  • @Warmolt48
    @Warmolt48 2 місяці тому

    I also ask what they need or what helps in the moment, If not they get an akward arm on the back not being sure if I should give a big hugg or nah...

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      the awkward arm on the back is so real!! sometimes its an odd angle but u just gotta work around it~ i have long nails so i tend to doodle with my nails on their back or arm until they're calm <3

  • @K4alopsia
    @K4alopsia 2 місяці тому

    this made me realize that I should take a break myself, it's making my mental health worse mostly beacuse there's a lot of negativity, like for example I've been having a lot of vidoes of people in need of help or animal abuse happening around the world and I understand that these kind of things need to be talked about but I've noticed that it always ruins my mood somehow even tho I don't really care. Also people talking about bad things in their life which I can relate to a lot of times, like till someone doesn't say something I don't even realize and when I do it just makes me more depressed..and I'm in love with your hair, you seems like such a cool person

  • @notall2gether
    @notall2gether 2 місяці тому

    Just came across you on my timeline and I relate so much to this. Always been way too self aware and scared of what others think of me, especially being Autistic I can't really read people's minds on their opinion of me. I post a lot but can get sucked into checking who saw everything and how many likes I get when my real goal on the app is just to talk about my life. Same with Tik Tok, but even worse because of my videos reaching the wrong audiences and getting hate comments.

  • @silly_emoji_user
    @silly_emoji_user 2 місяці тому

    I didn't watch the video, but I just really wanted to admire the way you look, cool style👍

  • @planlet_marz
    @planlet_marz 2 місяці тому

    This is so real, lol. I especially have a hard time comforting people online because I never know what to say or how to respond. I love physically touching so in person a can at least offer a hug or something, can't do that online tho 😓

  • @moch4324
    @moch4324 2 місяці тому

    this resonated a lot. i still check instagram and my friends text me on there, but i havent posted since this spring (and in 4 years of being on there, i've posted maybe 9 times only). and it always feels very weird to attend an event, or travel somewhere and not post. the part where you said that lots of people just ask for social media upon meeting resonated a LOT!! like i don't have snapchat pls leave me alone. long story short: i'm glad this video ended up on my recommended :))

  • @pinknintendo
    @pinknintendo 2 місяці тому

    I have instagram but I never post. Havent for about 3-4 years. I'm tired and I don't like the feeling of posting something and then constantly checking who saw it who liked it etc. it used to stress me out so much. Im rll surprised that ppl care that u dont post bc I never post and ppl just see me as a private person/ non attention seeking person and dont think much of it. I never felt bad for not posting. Only sometimes I wish I updated ppl more on what Im doing.Like after I moved to a different country to study no one even knew cause I said nothing. I felt rll free. I rll wish there would be instagram with only chatting. I only keep insta to see how others are doing, what they up to and to chat. I wish I could delete it tho bc I hate reels but somehow I always end up there and I hate hate hate it. I uninstalled tiktok 2 years ago. It felt amazing. Its total brainrot. It was very entertaining, way better than reels and I love the dancing challenges and the humor but its just so much misinformation, scrolling and uncritical thinking. People literally believ anything said on that app. Not to mention the amount of time people collectively decide to hate on someone and the next day feel bad for them💀.

  • @pinknintendo
    @pinknintendo 2 місяці тому

    Nice talk, btw I think there's something playing in the background 🧍🏻‍♀️I thought I'm hearing noises and kept removing my headphones to check😭😭😭

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      my bad boo that was mr. worldwide (he’s in ur walls) 🫶

  • @kittyhnns
    @kittyhnns 2 місяці тому

    Thanks for talking about this! I've deleted most of my social media many times in my life, but every time I've come back it all feels really pointless. It's all fake and it's not good for my mental health for many reasons. The sad thing is that without social media I always feel lonely, like I'm an outcast of society. It's a hard choice to make, but right now I'm just using UA-cam and pretty happy. I started writing a diary and it's the best decision I've made in a long time. ❤

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      yes!! i fully support diary/journal entries!!! ever since i started writing a few times a week/month i’ve noticed it to be an incredibly effective tool to deconstruct my current emotions, especially when i feel lonely. it sounds like you know exactly where i’m coming from, and i rlly appreciate ur comment !! ♡

  • @ghostbwunny
    @ghostbwunny 2 місяці тому

    you were randomly recommended on my timeline, you're so pretty & sympathetic <3 great video btw, it lowk gives 2017 vibes love that

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      omg stop ur the sweetest, thank u sm ♡

  • @paulinamaste
    @paulinamaste 2 місяці тому

    Thank you so much for this video! this is exactly what I struggle with<3

  • @blueerie_
    @blueerie_ 2 місяці тому

    just stumbled accross this, i thought you had at least 50k !! you are so well spoken!

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      goodness, u flatter me, thank you!! ♡

  • @mentalllblues1
    @mentalllblues1 2 місяці тому

    i live in russia and it's very popular here to have a telegram channel where you basically share everything from selfies to memes etc. so when you befriend someone you are expected to subscribe to their channel?? kind of. and my problem with that is if this person that i want to be friends with has like so much followers and mutuals who comment on their posts all the time i just feel like im not good enough to even talk to this person anymore :/ and because i don't have a channel myself i feel like i'm not sharing enough = not being thruthful enough with my friends?? idk also i tried deleting most of my socials this summer and after like a week when i downloaded them again none of my "friends" who i met through social media didn't bother to text me once even though we were texting for months almost every day before that// which made me realise how fake most of what we project onto social media is btw your talking videos <3

    • @leonlugowsky
      @leonlugowsky 2 місяці тому

      Wow, I didn't know you're now expected to subscribe to your friends channels... That's awful. I'm much older, but I update my tg channel only once or twice a month. And I think I'm considered cool and mysterious. My subs are mostly friends of friends though, and they don't really know i'm actually a moron.

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      that’s so intriguing, i had no idea the concept of telegram as a social media platform (as opposed to just texts) was rlly a thing!! i sympathise with feeling “smaller than” and less “significant/noteworthy” than the friends who get TONS of interaction on every post; you’re almost a follower instead of a close friend. i do really hope you find ppl who appreciate you for you, instead of ur presence online. much love~ xx ♡

  • @xiuehe
    @xiuehe 2 місяці тому

    i feel comfortable here❤

    • @MeissaMontelle
      @MeissaMontelle 2 місяці тому

      it means so much to hear this, thank you❣️stay as long as you wish ~ xx

  • @dexymelnyczuk9685
    @dexymelnyczuk9685 2 місяці тому

    It's really awesome to hear other people talk about this same issue! also, you're so cool <3

  • @Esaq_1240
    @Esaq_1240 2 місяці тому

    Think positive it works. dont focus on what u dont have. Try what u can do, dont force urself unless u like it meaning doing something that u do like that way u dont repent on what career or path u take also, the future is here meditate on what u would do if u were rich or famous already & be happy by the time that what u longed for u might of forget or by the time u passed it u wouldnt had notice cause u Already did note if u are fake it will backfire, keep going forward

    • @Esaq_1240
      @Esaq_1240 2 місяці тому

      Be careful with what u wish for

  • @lathspelz
    @lathspelz 2 місяці тому

    the universes suggestion box is called magic or prayer. Might give it a try.

  • @LunaWitcherArt
    @LunaWitcherArt 2 місяці тому

    As a 28yo woman with anxiety, I understand wanting things to happen NOW, wanting to GET things and DO things and have that satisfaction. Unfortunately, life no care and brain no likey. I'm assuming you are young, so this is the perfect time for you to start practicing a thing that I really hate about the brain: satisfaction in long efforts. The brain loves the quick dopamine hits we give it everyday with screens, media, food and other fast things, but the brain also NEEDS the SLOW dopamine, the thing you get when you are working towards something for some time before actually getting the satisfaction of having it finished. I don't have that, and it is being both a pain to learn and a hindrance to my career. It's what you get by writing, learning an instrument, drawing, doing crafts, exercising, dancing, singing, and getting better at any of those things through consistent dedication. My professor used to say that 1 hour a day still makes something if you keep at it every day, and I hate that it works. Find something you like - it can be silly, it just has to be something that you can take your time improving - and try to do it for an hour a day. I am writing fanfic with that time. You might not see the results right away, but you might be calmer about it.

  • @TheDarksteel94
    @TheDarksteel94 2 місяці тому

    "Ya like Jazz?"

  • @Emzjellybeanz
    @Emzjellybeanz 2 місяці тому

    Recognising your emotional responses is great, there are people who don't accept they're having problems and there's no way those people can ever change. I remember going through these feelings a lot, and there's no shame in feeling 'immature' at your age, because in a way you are! Not to be patronising, I'm only a few years older than you and I still am finding new emotions and situations I have to learn to deal with. It takes a whole lifetime to learn to be a person :)

  • @planlet_marz
    @planlet_marz 2 місяці тому

    I have a friend who kind of goes through what ur saying. I mean, I can't say I know how to help, but I know I'm never really mad or upset at them. I understand where they are coming from, and I think ur true friend will understand where you are coming from as well. Idk if that gives you any reassurance lol(prolly not) Also, have you played stardew Valley? I love it 10/10 game!!

  • @lathspelz
    @lathspelz 3 місяці тому

    So, what did you say?

  • @luisdawnfinder3188
    @luisdawnfinder3188 3 місяці тому

    I can relate to this feeling. I'd been stuck these past few years. I thought I was gonna get my life started right when covid hit and it's been a long process just getting things going after that. I think you're right that we have to be the change we want to see in our lives. I'd also just warn you about instagram and social media, that it's sort of a dangerous trap a lot of our generous falls into where we feel the need to compare ourselves to others and feel like were missing out. Find the things that you want for your life and work for them and I'm sure it will work out. Best of luck! Also your cat is super adorable <3

  • @YAMi_PRiSMØ
    @YAMi_PRiSMØ 3 місяці тому

    Meow

  • @lucky_veruca
    @lucky_veruca 3 місяці тому

    This is REAL, CLASSIC youtube. Just a person, their camera and something they wanna say. Thank you, algorithm, for showing me this.

  • @planlet_marz
    @planlet_marz 3 місяці тому

    I fear yt is trying to call me out bc same😓

  • @TheNewAWay
    @TheNewAWay 3 місяці тому

    Watching the older things really gets my soul calm. The new things are fine but the older has something. At least in my eyes.😅

  • @pixlluv
    @pixlluv 3 місяці тому

    Charlie and Lola, Max & Ruby, Bluey, Curious George- i watch these 24/7 and I am 23. 0 shame

  • @38k25m
    @38k25m 3 місяці тому

    god i love content where it’s just normal people being themselves. thanks

  • @skibidicat10
    @skibidicat10 3 місяці тому

    i love your hair