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Beth, this was beautiful. I was thinking of you and how we battled this together through UA-cam. This brought so much self awareness to myself. Because lately, I have not been good to myself. This reminded me how much I should. You have always been a true inspiration to me as well as so many others. You really had an amazing voice others can truly appreciate and cherrish. I hope where ever you are on your journey's it's an amazing one! I still hope you make that amazing vacation to your ancestary one day as well.❤

I know these are old, but Lord knows I needed you. Today is going to be the start I try to put them down

I really needed to hear this today... THANKS!

I'm 23 and trying to quit, thanks for being an inspiration 🙏

I love this, my friend…and especially your line in closing, “no one’s a stranger”…that is so true. Thank you for being so beautifully transparent 🤍

Thanks for keeping us posted! And I LOVE the practice of being kind and friendly to ourselves NO MATTER WHAT 😊

Peace my Friend!

Love you!

Wow Sweetie...this sounds like a really hard place ... Always your choice - and hope you can talk about this with your support groups too... Prayers all around 💖🙏🏼💖

I love how real you're being here ⏤ and yes, such wisdom in your words: Addiction is a prison...these feelings will pass...smoking is not an option (until 1/1/24 at 12:01am)

Hey Beth. This one truly got to me as I'm at day 255 now and still struggling as well. Maybe it's the lack of community the smells of weed in the air when I go out the times off from work when kids aren't around the miss of feeling relaxed and the flavor I get from vape. But what about what I don't miss, being broke being in prison always needing to smoke more and more, everything you mentioned is so true. Do I prefer me now or then? 100 percent now. It's just not worth it to go back to prison from 1 day of creative enjoyment. Plus yes MA and especially NA is so freaking depressing and intense. You can do this. We can do this. Have faith and pray to her for strength. She will listen. So will I always. We would love to see you again this Wednesday so much as well. Dr. Frank is back!

Blessings Beth - right there with you ❤❤❤❤

Love all of this - congrats on day 70 Beth!!! 🎉🎉🎉❤❤

Try to chew gum every time you want to smoke good luck pray on it be safe God bless you are you a Pittsburgh steelers fan

O wow!!! Congratulations Beth - how exciting. If you ever bring your work to Minnesota I’d love to see it ❤❤❤❤

Oooo boundaries - way to go!!! Finding your voice looks good on you - your glowing ❤❤❤

Oh Wow! Hooray for you! That really sounds so healthy, strong, kind and courageous! Brava!

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You made it through the day. That's what is important, and keep telling yourself that each day you crave until it gets better and better. It's a struggle, especially when life doesn't seem fair, and it seems like weed would bring comfort. However, you're right. It's a prison. It imprisons you from the reality of the world. If you can take on the reality of the world, you can achieve anything! Imagine living in a state where you don't need a card. Keep thanking God it's become a challenge for you. Keep it a challenge. You chopped up that card for a reason. Always remember why you chopped it. Not what weed did for you in the past. Now you're free, and your true talent will shine! Congrats on day 50, 10 days to day 60, then you're at 3 months! You're a quarter of the way through a year with it!!!!!

Proud of you for resisting those urges, we will overcome❤️ wishing you better days

And congrats on getting your video submitted 🎉🎉🎉

So proud of you and your determination. I am also struggling with an ongoing hormonal issue that has been challenging to treat and manage so I can relate to where your coming from. I had a lot of those same thoughts today and really had to push myself to get through the day. Hugs and tomorrows a new day ❤

Something must be in the air because today, especially, I've been lonely as ever. I started being social without Mary Jane in my life again. So much so that I reached out, and I found a significant other. This person is an extremely long-distance relationship. So in the 5 months we've been together we only met once. As time distance and stress of life comes between us, that person stops calling so much, more like a pen pal now. I fell in love with this person more than I loved Mary Jane. More than I love any significant other. But having my back turned to me from someone cause they won't open there heart anymore and just reach out to me to just talk has made me so lonely that now I feel lost. It's making me miss Mary Jane and the comfort she gave me, more than any human could. But she also took all my time away from my life. It's like Mary Jane would comfort me, but what were her feelings of me truly? There was none cause she wasn't human. That's when I realized this was a new, lonely journey for me. It's gonna take time to understand humans again, to be patient, and know I'm not on their priority list when they are for me. So maybe this isn't the human for me. Cause for once in my life, I truly didn't feel alone. But now that im being ignored, it's been a really hard pill to swallow. I get it. Work is exhausting. Life is exhausting. But relationship and friendship takes work too. The word to keep telling ourselves is that to keep having patients. Patients towards ourselves and with humans cause one day God will bring that important person with feelings and love and support into our lives. It happens so unexpectedly, but that's how God works. Suprising us with grace out of the blue. So, if you can talk to God and ask for the loneliness to be taken, then perhaps one day, the lonely feeling might be taken by God. You might bump into that wonderful human. But then it's our responsibility to keep up in that relationship to keep it going strong with good communication, love, and comfort. Being lonely is the hardest part of my recovery, but as much as I did not feel alone with Mary Jane in the past, I also don't miss her being my cell mate as well. I will always be here for you in heart and spirit, and so will God. You have all of us in the community for your support. Always. 🙏

That reverse psychology works so well in life. You're totally right. To be back in prison again... Would it be worth it? Think about all you have to look forward to. Your health, your sanity, your relationship with God and how proud she is of you, and plus your trip to Europe and no need to seek out your addiction. Mary Jane can stay on the couch. She ain't invited to the fun things in your life now. These ups and downs come all the time. After about day 45, I lost my pink clouds as well. But life is ever so challenging, and when you succeed through those challenges, it's all blue sky's going forward and no concrete walls and steel bars. You got this. I'm proud of how far you've come and proud of your strength. Remember, those angels are always by your side to tell Mary Jane to leave you alone. Have faith in your angels and God. ❤️

You are not alone sister - I love how you are able to take the control back from and over the addictive voice. Hugs ❤

Soooo good to hear your solid resolve ... "I won't let it take me out this time... It's simply NOT an option..." 💖🏆💖

There will be so many ups and downs till you get past day 90! You're doing great, and I'm so proud of you! Keep up the hard work! Your true vacation is just around the corner!

Day 42.0! What a day to do a wedding. Turn that number into something positive instead of something addictive. You have broken free from your prison, and Mary Jane finally understands you're no longer her friend. There is no need to romanticize her. So proud of you. God is proud of you. Keep going! You're a true inspiration to us all!!

Letting go of the shoulds - learning this too Beth - love ❤

Awwww - love this post 🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤

Sending love Beth ❤❤❤

I'm happy you're feeling better. You're almost at your day 30! Keep your artist 🎨 flow going. You're very talented without weed for sure. Things will keep getting better everyday you now have all that addiction behind you, and you have a wonderful future to look forward to!

Beth - I just started therapy and am realizing these same things and feelings - oof sending love ❤

Wow...this is an interesting development. Looking forward to hearing more about what's going on. And I'm SO happy and impressed with how much you are valuing and protecting your new, precious sobriety.

👏👏👏 so happy for you that this was a better day 💖

Love listening to you share your journey... So powerfully transparent and encouraging. Brava!

Congratulations - that's HUGE!!!

super.what a beautiful ! Why.😲

So incredibly happy (and relieved) to hear how good you're feeling!

You definitely have the full potential to accomplish anything in life. Plus you are 100% correct! This is only the beginning of an amazing journey to having so much energy, time, money, and patience to becoming a world traveler. To be an inspiration to people around you. To have clear lungs and a healthy heart. This is just the beginning. So proud of you! 🙏

Love how you call out your addictive voice and recognized that nothing it's saying is true. Your gaining control of your mind not the addiction. It will do and say anything to bring you down. But your strength has got you knowing it's not true. Your real friend is God. The more respect you keep giving yourself the more respect God is giving you in return and your real friend here is her. She respects you for calling out the bs that addictive mind keeps throwing at you. Love your hobby too. Those tiles could sell on Etsey. Check it out somtime. I'd buy one from you. Keep up the good battle!

What an amazing goal!! Yes, I hated traveling too cause how you gonna bring and get weed to your final destination? Once you've noticed, you don't need it? You're not spending money on it? There is a whole world out there to see. I've started traveling myself. So far, after my recovery, I've been to Alaska and Wisconsin. I'm so grateful to see places. Next is to see my family in CT. I haven't seen them in 13 years! Addiction got me from doing that. Now, my grandmother passed at 97, and I never had a chance to say goodbye. She waited to for me. I blame that entirely on Mary Jane, keeping me sheltered and stealing all my time away from family I should have spent time with. But now the future is clear. I'm no longer in prison. I can travel and see the world, and I plan on continuing to do just that, just as you are. Slovakia sounds like such an amazing place to visit. Make sure you put some highlights of your trip on your channel. I'm looking forward to it!

One of the things that was an issue, still always, in my recovery was being around old people, places, and things. It's the biggest thing I was told to stay away from during my recovery. It's makes things very difficult on yourself and your emotions. I was a smoker as well and stopped around 1998. Cigarettes were like $4.50, which I knew was an issue cause it wasn't so bad that they were like 2.50 for so long in the 90s. Now there like $15.00, which is absolutely ridiculous. To spend that much money on something I watch family members get cancer from feels so wrong. But as we know, nicotine is very craving. Seeing someone enjoy a cigarette. I'm like, wow, I'm not sure why I'm missing that. The same is gonna happen with weed. It's so accepting in society that you will smell it, and you will see it. But you have God on your side. I always say to God, "Please give me the strength to forget. it's not for me," then God does come through. With it, I have also grown a stronger relationship with God being thankful for the life I'm given. I feel like smoking weed or a cigarette would be disrespectful. So I just don't do it. But man.. I sure want to some days. Plus, don't ever doubt yourself on how you raised your dog. You gave him shelter, food, and especially love. A lot more than someone else would do for an animal. He will always be in your heart and always will appreciate you for the kindness you gave. Always remember he could have had it worse. Your love for him gave him the best life he deserved, and you should be proud of yourself always for that. It's tough. I know I miss my best friend too. He was always there for me. But right now, be there for yourself and be there for God to be proud of you. You're a good person and deserve a long, healthy life. Always tell yourself that.

Life is good 👍 I got into a fight with someone at the gym, too first weekof my recovery. Apparently, if there is a towl on the equipment, it's owned by the person using it. Who knew. I wasn't having it that day. I totally understand. You will feel more positive each day that passes, I totally agree with you 👍

I think Mary Jane is starting to get the hint that you're done with her. Don't feel bad as she packs her things and walks out that door. Nice job on passing that strict PA inspection, too. I'd always get dinged in Philadelphia from those guys trying to get me for something, so already God is on your side!

The sweats are the toxins being released from your body. Water and electrolytes help. The anger will also pass. Keep it up! You got this 💪 Ignore that addictive voice it will go away. You're in control of your body now.

You're absolutely correct. Alcohol is a poison. It can remove the paint from your walls. Imagine what it does to you inside. So proud of you on your journey. You're doing incredible 👏

The key to your cell has turned. You're out of prison and on parole, and God is with you along your new journey every day. 🙏

Weed free at 63!! Sounds incredible 🙌

I agree with you on so many levels about the things you're not gonna miss. Especially those slippery salespeople at the dispensary. They are out to make a sale, strike a deal, and make a commission. They don't care about your health, your time, or your friendship. In the end, I believe this is gonna bring you even closer to God. Being clean from thc and out of the cage of the addiction is the way we are supposed to live. To respect the body God created for us. That's exactly what you're doing now. Respecting what God created and the respect will soon come in return 🙏