im not changing my theme, this one is only for this sub since i missed this theme just as much. i hope you guys are doing well and i hope you have an amazing day, ily♡
(ill also stop being a selfish asshole and post better subs again instead of more personal ones, this has just been bothering me for a really long time.)
benefits
_ go back to october 2020
_ everything is exactly the same as it was then, its always raining and youre always alone in your room in total darkness except for the weak light coming from your phone, if it wasnt for the rain you would forget you even existed, everyday you feel like youre drowning but its better than now so its ok, even though youre trapped in your room you still feel more free.
_ everyday has the same feeling as it did then.
like these songs:
// ua-cam.com/video/SUjD3BE9tzI/v-deo.html
// ua-cam.com/video/IMADudmepHw/v-deo.html
// ua-cam.com/video/dm87PN-fTlg/v-deo.html
(its very hard to explain that feeling so these songs are the best way i could put it, still not exactly though.)
_ every single notification felt like the most comfort you would ever get. it doesnt matter what it was, just getting anything at all felt amazing and made you not feel like the loneliest person in the world anymore for a few minutes.
_ (i know tiktok is shit, but whatever side i was on then was actually ok and i kind of miss it.) your fyp goes back to how it was last october, strangely comforting.
_ be able to go on stupid adventures like you used to, like the time you found a haunted doll and made your life worse, or the time your friend tried to push you off a tower.
_ go back to the days you would drink so many energy drinks you felt like you were going to be sick and stayed up so many days until you passed out.
_ your dangerous friends go back to the way they were last october, the only things they care about are knives/danger/and fun, everything they do is so life threatening that you might not survive it.
_ your life feels like a movie again, danger always makes things better.
_ still be able to answer simple messages. (I'm really sorry for this, I want to be able to respond and everything everyone says means so much, but idk how I lost it now I can't respond to anything without either saying something wrong or it taking a few hours [or even a whole day] only for my response not to be good enough.)
_ everything you lost still exists, your old friends still exist and all of your memories from that place doesnt feel like a lie anymore, youre able to finally go back home.