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My life story and journey as a woman with mild cerebral palsy
TMS VLOG: Days 26-29 (increased anxiety/depression, burnout, working as an slp in the schools)
TMS VLOG: Days 26-29 (increased anxiety/depression, burnout, working as an slp in the schools)
tms therapy,mental health,tms therapy review,tms therapy for adhd,tms therapy for anxiety,tms therapy experience,azstarys adhd,stimulants vs non stimulants for adhd,treatment for depression and anxiety,antidepressants,slp grad school vlog,slp grad school,slp grad school day in the life,slp grad student
tms therapy,mental health,tms therapy review,tms therapy for adhd,tms therapy for anxiety,tms therapy experience,azstarys adhd,stimulants vs non stimulants for adhd,treatment for depression and anxiety,antidepressants,slp grad school vlog,slp grad school,slp grad school day in the life,slp grad student
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TMS VLOG Days 24-25 (bursts of better mood, feeling slightly better)
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TMS VLOG Days 24-25 (bursts of better mood, feeling slightly better) TMS VLOG Days 24-25 (bursts of better mood,feeling slightly better),transcranial magnetic stimulation therapy,treatment for depression,depression and anxiety,azstarys adhd,stimulants vs non stimulants,mental health vlog,living with a disability,growing up with cerebral palsy
TMS VLOG Days 22-23: impulsive spending, grad school slp life, depression, anxiety, adhd life
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TMS VLOG Days 22-23: impulsive spending, grad school slp life, depression, anxiety, adhd life TMS VLOG Days 22-23: impulsive spending,grad school slp life,depression,anxiety,adhd life,slp day in,slp day in the life,speech language pathologist day in the life,speech language pathologist day in the life school,speech language pathologist assistant day in the life,adhd stimulants vs nonstimulants,...
TMS Day 21 VLOG transcranial magentic stimulation therapy (depression anxiety, adhd, cerebral palsy)
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TMS Day 21 VLOG transcranial magentic stimulation therapy (depression anxiety, adhd, cerebral palsy) TMS Day 21 VLOG transcranial magentic stimulation therapy (depression anxiety,adhd,cerebral palsy),tms therapy
TMS VLOG Days 19/20: Why I'm depressed/exhausted on weekends, Dr K's Guide, living with ADHD/MDD/GAD
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It all makes sense now... @HealthyGamerGG TMS VLOG Days 19/20: Why I'm depressed/exhausted on weekends,Dr K's Guide,living with ADHD/MDD/GAD,The healthy gamer,anxiety and depression,stimulant medication,adhd,stimulants vs nonstimulants,transcranial magnetic stimulation,mental health video,mental health update,cerebral palsy,living with a disability,It all makes sense now... @HealthyGamerGG,dr k...
TMS DAY 18: getting more sleep, TMS Dip, contentious IEP meetings (depression, anxiety, adhd and cp)
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TMS DAY 18: getting more sleep, TMS Dip, contentious IEP meetings (depression, anxiety, adhd and cp)
TMS Day 17 VLOG: Irritability, fatigue and burnout (depression, anxiety, adhd and cerebral palsy)
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TMS Day 17 VLOG: Irritability, fatigue and burnout (depression, anxiety, adhd and cerebral palsy) TMS Day 17 VLOG: Irritability,fatigue and burnout (depression,anxiety,adhd and cerebral palsy),inattentive adhd,transcranial magnetic stimulation,stimulant medication
TMS VLOG DAY 16: Tired of working, dealing with burnout and chilhood trauma responses
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TMS VLOG DAY 16: Tired of working, dealing with burnout and chilhood trauma responses TMS VLOG DAY 16: Escaping the rat race,dealing with chilhood trauma responses,tired of working that 9 to 5,tired of working for a living,major depressive disorder,adhd medication,teacher burnout,ready to retire,i dont want to work anymore,i dont want to work a 9-5,TMS VLOG DAY 16: Tired of working,dealing with...
TMS day 15: I'm 34 years old and still don't drive (living with anxiety, depression, adhd and CP)
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TMS day 15: I'm 34 years old and still don't drive (living with anxiety, depression, adhd and CP) TMS day 15: I'm 34 years old and still don't drive (living with anxiety,depression,adhd and CP),transcranial magnetic stimulation therapy,transcranial magnetic stimulation depression,major depression,transcranial magnetic stimulation autism,transcranial magnetic stimulation adhd,transcranial magnet...
TMS treatment Day 14: falling, coming off stimulants, mental fog, depression, anxiety, burnout
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TMS treatment Day 14: falling, coming off stimulants, mental fog, depression, anxiety, burnout
Why Am I Like This? Sad for no reason: Dealing with ADHD, Anxiety, Depression and Mood Swings
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Help support my son's cub scout goal: trails-end.com/store/scout/VCBY50VV?share=1MG1VT83&fbclid=IwY2xjawEk-DBleHRuA2FlbQIxMAABHdLGGf2eTX1nWwumrjZ39p9gr59isoww4R0_Co_hGiUyVNIlfLc7oiRFgQ_aem_DR8D6aQM21ORoSSmx2Mcqg Why Am I Like This? Depressed on weekends: Dealing with ADHD, Anxiety, Depression and Mood Swings
TMS therapy Day 13: Fatigue, work-life balance and stimulants (adhd, depression and anxiety)
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TMS therapy Day 13: Fatigue, work-life balance and stimulants (adhd, depression and anxiety)
TMS Day 12 VLOG: increased pain, headache, fatigue TMS treatment for depression and anxiety
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TMS Day 12 VLOG: increased pain, headache, fatigue TMS treatment for depression and anxiety
Day 11 of TMS for depression/anxiety:cognitive distortions, masking, shyness and growing up disabled
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Day 11 of TMS for depression/anxiety:cognitive distortions, masking, shyness and growing up disabled Day 11 of TMS for depression/anxiety:cognitive distortions,masking,shyness and growing up disabled,transcranial magnetic stimulation,mental health,tms therapy,depression treatment,tms therapy side effects,tms therapy review,tms therapy for anxiety,tms therapy for adhd,stimulant medication,azstarys
TMS treatment for depression/anxiety Day 10 VLOG
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TMS treatment for depression/anxiety Day 10 VLOG TMS treatment for depression/anxiety Day 10 VLOG,tms treatment for depression,what is tms therapy,rtms treatment for depression,anxiety treatment,transcranial magnetic stimulation explained,treatment resistant depression,TMS,tms success stories,tms therapy,my tms experience,my tms journey,ADHD,stimulants and adhd,stimulant vs non stimulant adhd
TMS therapy Day 9 VLOG: headaches, insomnia, mood swings, school, work and life stressors
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TMS therapy Day 9 VLOG: headaches, insomnia, mood swings, school, work and life stressors
I made my mom cry today.. Immigrant family dynamic collectivism vs individualism, depression/anxiety
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I made my mom cry today.. Immigrant family dynamic collectivism vs individualism, depression/anxiety
TMS treatment day 8: slight improvement, adhd stimulant, involuntary eyebrow twitch
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TMS treatment day 8: slight improvement, adhd stimulant, involuntary eyebrow twitch
TMS treatment day 7: Fatigue/exhaustion, ADHD stimulants, work stress and Family Leave
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TMS treatment day 7: Fatigue/exhaustion, ADHD stimulants, work stress and Family Leave
TMS treatment Day 6 VLOG: Anxiety, staying busy, ADHD meds and no time to rest
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TMS treatment Day 6 VLOG: Anxiety, staying busy, ADHD meds and no time to rest
TMS therapy day 5 for depression and anxiety (heightened anxiety, adhd, startling, back to work)
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TMS therapy day 5 for depression and anxiety (heightened anxiety, adhd, startling, back to work)
Growing up undocumented: Where Do I Belong? Identity crisis, fear, anxiety, culture clash
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Growing up undocumented: Where Do I Belong? Identity crisis, fear, anxiety, culture clash
Mood Journal 7/28/24: Family Drama, toxic family system latino culture and generational trauma
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Mood Journal 7/28/24: Family Drama, toxic family system latino culture and generational trauma
This is what happens when I don't take my stimulants for a day (Azstaryz for ADHD) mood journal
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This is what happens when I don't take my stimulants for a day (Azstaryz for ADHD) mood journal
6 Things You Must Do When Raising a Child With a Disability: Growing Up Disabled
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6 Things You Must Do When Raising a Child With a Disability: Growing Up Disabled
Transcranial magnetic stimulation TMS Day 4 for depression/anxiety (dreading going back to work)
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Transcranial magnetic stimulation TMS Day 4 for depression/anxiety (dreading going back to work)
TMS treatment Day 3: Transcranial magnetic stimulation for depression and anxiety (ADHD, Asztaryz)
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TMS treatment Day 3: Transcranial magnetic stimulation for depression and anxiety (ADHD, Asztaryz)
TMS Day 2 Mood Journal (transcranial magnetic stumulation therapy for depression and anxiety)
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TMS Day 2 Mood Journal (transcranial magnetic stumulation therapy for depression and anxiety)
My TMS experience DAY 1 (Mood Journal Day 3) transcranial magnetic stimulation depression/anxiety
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My TMS experience DAY 1 (Mood Journal Day 3) transcranial magnetic stimulation depression/anxiety
Mood Journal Day 2: gym, medication and productivity (azstaryz stimulant adhd, depression, effexor)
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Mood Journal Day 2: gym, medication and productivity (azstaryz stimulant adhd, depression, effexor)
The problem might be that you want the medicine to do all the work. You take it late on the day because you wake up late? No routine? At 3 hours you feel depressed. Is it because all you pay attention to is how you feel?
I start my journey on Wednesday. Thank you for making this video.
Wishing you the best of luck on your journey!
I watched your video. Thanks a lot.
Ty for sharing your experiences fr it helps me im having a really rough time rn
Ty for making these videos it means alot
shes a speech therapist at schools and studying that, has a tesla or selling it broke not paid next year or live w parents. has kids. look out for car buying scammers some had bank app hacked seeing fake payment . communication disorders bachelor , mood is improving may be tms working .
Do you think TMS therapy is appropriate for someone who only has ADHD (and perhaps some social anxiety) in order to get off stimulant medication? Perhaps you could address this question after your treatments. Thanks for the updates. Best of luck to you.
Can TMS Help Individuals With ADHD? In short, yes! For those seeking an innovative and non-pharmaceutical ADHD treatment, TMS presents a promising solution.
amazing
Thank you so much for educating us.
I have ADHD anxiety and depression . I struggled with working in a normal workplace. The solution for me was having my own business at home. I found I was so much more productive, I think the main reason was the stress was much less. It let me deal with the world on my terms, I interacted with people, customers and suppliers as I felt. It's not for everyone, but for me it worked. I'm considering TMS for myself, so are following your progress, thanks for your reports cheers.
Before I took on a 9-to-5 job, I relied on income from my Etsy shop and custom orders for T-shirts and invitations. It was less stressful, but the earnings were inconsistent, and I sometimes struggled financially. Now that I have a steady paycheck, I’m dealing with more stress and less freedom. I need to find a middle ground where I can enjoy financial stability without sacrificing too much of my personal freedom and peace of mind.
i feel as if this would be the perfect antidepressant for me, but i suffer from panic attacks and im scared it would make them worse. im currently on 150mg of trazadone at night.
I watched your video thank you so much
Have you tried Lustral? My wife has anxiety and she was fearful of driving and she ended up taking lustral and she was fine!
I understand that you've been facing some really tough times recently. It is incredibly overwhelming to juggle a demanding full-time job along with everything else you have on your plate. It's absolutely okay to feel frustrated and complain. I got myself thinking it's possible that exhaustion doesn't necessarily mean you can't handle a full-time workload; it might just be that you’ve taken on too much at once. As someone with ADHD, I've also learned that we tend to overestimate our abilities and capacity. In my case it leads to a cycle of burnout too often, and I wonder if you might be experiencing something similar. I myself felt that I just couldn't handle what I was supposed to so many times and the thought that I couldn't handle a full-time job is so terrifying to me that I never let myself to admit it. So when I heard it in your video it triggered me. Meaning I felt something like “No no no! Anything just not that!” and I started projecting my fears on your situation. So I completely understand and accept it if my suggestions are not only irrelevant but unwanted 😅
Haii I found your video again after so long. Hope all goes well for you!
Thank you so much
I watched your video. Thank you so much.
I recommend researching about stellate gangelion block , hope you get better ❤️
I watched your video. Thank you so much.
What seems to help me is some cardio. When I feel a bit melancholy Max my cattle dog and I MTB some trails, I live in the upper Yarra valley, which has a national park and trails aplenty. It is temperate rainforest we often see black wallabys, wombats and hear lyre birds, corowa and if we're lucky a white tailed cockatoo. I think it's like a meditation the elevated heart rate, the Endorphins kick in. I never return feeling worse.
Thank you so much for educating me on medications to control symptoms . And you told in your videos your levels of both anxiety and depression ypu faced. I like to know from you what is the way to detect them.
Thank you so much.
Thank you for watching!
Just for an example and different perspective of how you think people see you. While I listen to your story, I see you as a great example for myself. I have fewer obstacles and complications in life than you do, and still I’m not able to force myself to do even half of what you do. I feel so debilitated by my depression and ADHD that I can’t do anything and don't know what I want to do with my life, meanwhile you are very persistent with your goal. You do all you can to follow your direction and goal. So I look at you and think that maybe I’ll be able to find my way out of it and start doing something with my life. I appreciate you sharing your experience and root for you🙌
Thank you so much for your kind words and for sharing your perspective with me. Remember that everyone's journey is different, and what might seem like persistence in me is just me trying to figure things out day by day, just like you. It's okay to take things at your own pace and to be gentle with yourself along the way. I’m rooting for you too, and I believe that you’ll find your way in your own time. Keep going, and take care of yourself.
Again, I can really relate. I am always very afraid that people will think I am incompetent because I have cerebral palsy and I also relate to just trying to fit in. I try so hard to show that I’m capable of doing things and I don’t want anyone to think that I’m stupid.
I totally understand what you mean. I often worry about the same thing, thinking people might see me as less capable because of my cerebral palsy. I guess all we can do is take it one day at a time, and remember we are not alone in this journey. ❤.
Thank you so much, I have been following your progress, as I'm considering the treatment myself. I have ADHD and the usual co conditions. Your thoughtful information has been so valuable for me. I know how overwhelming it can be, you are brave doing your best to try to understand your conditions, and helping other people at the same time. I spent most of my life being ashamed and masking to try to fit in. l have come to the conclusion it only makes me sicker. Anna Gadsby book, Ten steps to Nanette. Her journey through ADHD anxiety and depression and how she deals with it, is worth a read. Thanks again.
I'm glad the information I share is helpful as you consider your treatment options. Navigating ADHD and its challenges is tough, I totally understand the struggle with masking to fit in-it’s exhausting and isolating. Thank you for the book recommendation; I’ll definitely check it out!
Thank you so much.
Thank you so much for educating us.
The feeling of not belonging completely makes sense. I can imagine what you felt. Feel so much of compassion for your experience.
Your this video made me sensitive . I really admire your tenacious puissant determination to share how you are taking therapy to mitigate symptoms of mental disorders , despite your fatigue and exhausted mood.
Hi, are you still taking Qelbree currently? I’m on my third week and so far and it feels like they were my worst unproductive weeks in so long. Major symptoms: feeling down, apathetic, lazy to do anything, sleepy most of the time even with my sleep schedule well set & hopeless. Before taking it I wasn’t taking any specific medication for ADHD, but I at least could run my life, rn it feels this medication is holding me back. Idk if I should stop I’m really frustrated and disappointed.
Hi no I’m not.i noticed a pattern with SNRIs (qelbree, strattera, etc) that made me feel the exact way you’re describing.. exhausted, depressed, I could sleep all day when I was on these medications and the side effects just weren’t worth it for me. I let my psychiatrist know and he eventually put me on stimulant medication.. again I had to go through a few of those before finding the one that worked for me.. currently I’m on a stimulant med called asztaryz.. it’s relatively new. I’ve also found that I do better on lower doses because I’m super sensitive to medication. Kudos to you for waiting those side effects out. I hope you find something that works for you!
Thank you so much for persuading us how to achieve success in life despite enormous pressure caused by symptoms of mental related problems.
You sound more upbeat!
I agree. I saw all your videos on this channel and I noticed a shift in the way you speak. Hopefully, this is one of the signs that the treatment goes well for you 🤞
I appreciate you and the work you’re doing in these videos. I’m considering TMS and it’s great to hear people talk about their experience going through the treatment.
Glad you find the videos helpful!
I've had a very similar experience being raised by overprotective parents which, no surprise, led me to the very same results it led you. I always feel incompetent in comparison to other adults. It's actually very hard to admit that I'm nearly 30 years old and I'm failing to be an autonomous adult. I barely manage a full-time job and never have the energy to maintain my household. I just recently moved in with my boyfriend mostly to move out from my mom and I feel trapped in the relationship I'm unhappy in and at my job that I burned out from, but still the worst-case scenario is to move in with my mom back again. The worst feeling it gives me is that little self-esteem, lack of independence, and none of self-worth. I'm definitely not close with my mom, and despite being an adult, she still has this power over me to make me feel even less self-respect.
I'm sorry you're going through this as well. It’s a tough cycle to break, and I'm still figuring it out myself. I recently started therapy again, so I’m hopeful that will make a difference. Stay strong and remember, you're not alone.
@@queen_of_awkward1008 Thank you. We'll get through this. 🙏
Thank you so much
Thank you for watching !
Thank you so much.
Thank you for the perspective shift.
Thank you for sharing this. I just started looking for TMS reviews and they’ve come off as actors or are just generic. I appreciate you sharing your experiences in such detail. I hope the treatments are successful for you. I was browsing the rest of your content and I look forward to watching more.
So glad you’re finding the videos helpful, thank you for watching!
I’m on trintellix and azstarys I don’t feel like my meds are working and I feel like they haven’t been working since Januaryi I have no motivation and feel no joy and I hate feeling that way it’s hard to describe I was always so productive until I got married and had a child
You should ALSO take a non Stimulant like Qelbree or Strattera. I have been taking both and I often get short bursts of motivation. Strattera regulates my mood, focus to a degree but when I take Azstarys it Shuts down all of the invasive thoughts and I focus even more. It does make me a tad bit sluggish though. It's like it tells my body not to overwork itself.
Try, Jornay PM.
Thank you so much for guiding us to control mental symptoms.
I'm been following your TMS treatment as I am considering having a course myself. But stumbled upon this video. I had no idea America treated people this way, it's terrible I'm sure the constant stress would have made your conditions worse, It certainly worsens my anxiety, but I can distance myself from it. It would have been unbearable having to deal with it for decades. Just you take care of yourself.
Growing up as an immigrant in America was challenging, and it did affect my mental health. I'm glad to share my experiences to raise awareness. Thank you for your kind words and for following my TMS journey. Feel free to reach out if you have any questions about TMS or anything else.
Thank you so much.
I’m on day 11 I’m struggling
Sorry to hear that, hang in there. It’s been my experience that with a lot of these medications, the side effects subside after about a month. But if you feel the side effects are too intense or severe, it might not be worth waiting it out. Sending positive vibes your way. 🙏🏻
@@queen_of_awkward1008 thank you hope I make it
Thank you for speaking about this. I am a first generation American and I often feel like I don’t belong in America nor Mexico.
It’s definitely a struggle! But you are not alone 🙏🏻❤️
I wouldn't really relate to this. Whenever I've gone into someone else's country, I always entered through their legal process and remembered that I was a guest in their country.
I understand that not everyone will be able to relate, thank you for watching and sharing your thoughts on the matter.
I was sensitive after hearing an important part of your autubiography. I really appreciate your dedication and determination in dealing with tough situations. Thank you so much
Thank you for taking the time to watch!
It's a thanks from me too. I have ADHD and the usual co conditions, I am considering this treatment as my next step. I too am trying to isolate as much as possible each new step, to try and evaluate if it is of benefit. It can be difficult to do with all of life going on. You seem to be doing that very well. I am looking forward to your evaluation of the process and hopefully some benefit. Cheers
Thanks for watching, I'm glad you found it helpful, wishing you the best in your journey!
Thank yoju so much for guiding us how to tackle problems aggravated by social anxiety. I am certain that attitude of the people in your country is such a one that they are not going to mock , humiliate people with social phobia.. in my country sri lanka it is tatally opposite , rather majority of the people have pessimistic attitude towards them. I have become a their prey.
Thank you! I'm glad the guidance was helpful. I'm sorry to hear about the challenges you face in Sri Lanka. It's tough when people don't understand social anxiety. Remember, you're not alone. There are online communities and support groups that can offer help and understanding. Stay strong!
Thanks for sharing this. I'm also starting a different treatment recently for depression. I'm interested to see where this goes
Thank you so much