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I'm over a year into hrt. I live in a conservative state and I always feel scared to leave home. I get stares, laughs and disapproving looks/stares. Anytime someone sees me as a woman and calls she/her without being prompted i feel ecstatic. At least in a conservative state I know when people gender me correctly it's not just because they are being nice. Those instances seem like the exception though. I feel like I would be so happy if it happened everyday. Your video voiced pretty much everything I've been feeling. Even down to the nightmares about being mistreated and misgendered. I hate feeling like my body and face will never feel feminine enough to me. I hate that I hate that I have to constantly ne scared and paranoid people want to hurt me when I go out in public. I often doubt my transition all together but I don't think I could go back living as a dude

This was so beautifully and perfectly articulated. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.

Thank you! I'm trying to find videos I can show to my Buddhist mother to explain to her what non-binary is and maybe trying to make her accept me for being non-binary. I think this will help out a lot, for me to understand her and frame my conversations with more understanding of her beliefs so that she might be able to understand me and accept my identity!

Hey this channel is great and i really enjoyed this video. TYSM!

There’s no self…but the self is gendered, and the gender happens to coincide with the latest cultural fads. Huh huh. Ok.

Omg! Your explanation of being outside the shared social context of language and other people treating it as an attack, rang sooo true for me! Im in Recovery now but that has been a problem my entire life. I have a huge problem with being required to call myself an alcoholic when i was a drug addict. Despite being told to just say it i find i cannot. I also find contradictions of this nature in other parts of the program. Dont get me wrong, I love the program and i believe it saved my life, but I clash with others when i dont mean to due to language discrepancies between words and meanings and all efforts to esablish a mutual understanding in order to have an actual discussion tend to fail in other peoples emotionality and identity attachments to their use of language. (Im autistic also, if you couldnt tell.😁)

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Thank you for the gift of this channel 🙏 I had a coworker who was really angry the other day and I had to think a lot all day about what it’s like when we get angry, what it’s like when I’m angry, and when I realized that what I wanted to say to them was “please don’t withhold the gift of your kindness”, that’s what I need to tell myself when I’m angry.

This is the smallest nitpick, but I’ve seen multiple Tibetans online claim that the Tibetan bowl-shaped bells were never used as singing bowls, and the idea of “singing” the bowl is likely to have come from 19-20th century orientalist occultism, like that of the Thelemists. I have decided to believe that is true because I have never seen or heard of singing the bowls in the teachings of any ordained sangha leader in Tibetan Vajrayana. I deeply love your idea that trans people could be seen one day as exemplary role models of embracing the dharma law of impermanence. ❤️

David Bowie was offered to compose the film’s soundtrack. He turned it down as he wanted to focus on his acting and I’m glad he did turn it down. Otherwise, we would not have Ryuichi Sakamoto's great music compositions today.

this is exactly what ive been looking for.

I am so terrified of stopping, because it's the only thing that's normal or what I feel to be normal. How do I hold myself accountable. I used to think of myself as a functioning person who does drugs. I mean, I don't have a criminal record, never been arrested, never stole anything or committed any crimes. I have a job, I have a nice apartment, a nice car, I pay my bills before any using, I have 2 good buddies, and 1 sister out of 5 sisters and 2 brothers that support and care about me. I use with 1 of my buddies, but I have hid my drug addiction from everone else. Am I just using that as an excuse that if nobody knows, I can justify my using. I have tried to stop so many times and then relapse more than I can even remember. Any advice? I did go to a 30 Outpatient Substance Abuse Treatment Program, but I used every day I went and I'd go the the NA meetings, but only to find someone else there who I used with or ran into my dealer there or a middle man, so I always left afterwards and used with 1 of them or a group, so I stopped going. I run into my ex, I go and use with them, an old acquaintance or friend or co-worker, I go use with them. Any advice? Or suggestions? Something or someone good comes along in my life and my self doubt, lack of confidence creeps in and slowly takes over and I end up self-sabotaging what couldve been a good thing. I hate using, but absolutely love using. How sick is that? How do you reprogram yourself?? Sorry man for rambling on and on...

I'm at my wits end with my addiction. For a number of years, I referred to myself as a functioning addict, because I had a good job that paid well and never, ever missed a day of work, I had a nice car, a nice apartment, paid my rent, my car payment and all of my other bills first religiously, I kept my appearance up, I had nice things and clothes, interacted with my family and friends socially, I volunteered, I took excellent care of my cat, Milo... You get the point. I had/have all of these beautiful things in my life and I hid/still hide the "other side, the dark side" of my life... My full blown drug addiction to Meth. I am an open Gay man to my family, friends, at work and socially. I am single by my choice. My longest monogamous gay relationship was 16 years. After my ex left me, I had a break down and since 2007, I've been in 5 off/on again and finally break-up toxic, very toxic relationships, which has all involved drug and/or alcohol addiction, but all of these short term relationships were just toxic af. Since 2016, I have just chosen to put my walls up and remain single and at that time, I got involved with the parTy and play scene that has taken over most of the gay scene, at least int the area where I live, which is Minneapolis, MN. In July of 2017, I was about to go on PREP and while the testing part of my PREP appointment, my HIV test came back positive. Within a week, I had an HIV Infectious Disease Doctor and started on HIV meds. By December of 2017, I have been Undetectable with a high CD4 Count of 951. I know that I'm rambling, forgive me... I am a Gemini. Since 2016, I have quit using drugs anywhere from a few hours, to a few days, weeks, months and one time I made it 1 year, but I keep relapsing and repeated relapses over and over again and again. I've only been to an Outpatient Substance Abuse Treatment Program, which I used the whole time I went. Is it crazy to think that I am a functioning drug addict?? I still have my car, my apartment, I pay all my bills first, I have never stolen anything or gotten arrested from anything, I have no criminal record, but the last year, I have greatly reduced my socialization with my family and friends. I had to go on SSDI (Disability) because my Neurologist found 35 lesions on my brain, diagnosed 3 years ago with Bipolar ll with Depression and Anxiety, PTSD, OCD, GAD as well as having an Addictive Personality Disorder. I find myself sort of self-sabotaging when things start looking good or if I meet a new guy or different friends. That's when my overthinking takes control and that's when I end of relapsing and the cancellation of social events or get togethers with my family or friends seem justifiable, you know? I the past 6 years, I have went from a huge, fun extrovert to now an introvert who usually uses alone in my apartment. I do have self esteem and confidence issues now, because of how those 35 lesions are affecting my memory, loss of words, concentration and attention span. Sometimes, I'm all over the place. A few people know about my drug addiction and about the 35 lesions on my brain, but very few. Most of my friends and family know about my HIV. I only have the support of 2 of my best friends and only 1 sister out of 5 sisters and 2 brothers, so pretty much everyone left my side when they find out I had HIV. Alot of them don't even know about my drug addiction and it has gotten worse these last 2 years. I use multiple times, every day with basically no clean time. I either use alone or with my 2 friends. Any suggestions? I realize if this is not an avenue to reach out, but I'm at my wits end and I cannot stop. I'm terrified of stopping, because it's been who I have been for so long. But my health, specifically my diagnosis of HIV has been the direct result of my drug addiction. How does this happen or begin? I only drank very little socially with my ex of 16 years. We didn't even smoke weed or cigarettes and absolutely no drugs of any kind. Why? What happened to me to end up this way? I know and realize that I am absolutely no better than anyone else on this Earth. But why can't I stop and if I do, it's all I think about and then the recycle starts all over and over again and again. Is this even living? I'm so incredibly exhausted of life, of living. Is this it? Is this my legacy, to be remembered as a HIV gay introverted junkie? Will people even remember me? Idk anymore. It's like I'm lost and wondering around looking for something or someone, but at the same time, I don't want to be found. Sorry for the rambling of nothingness.

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I’ve been there . Lao temple in NY

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How do you all address in terms of the trans identity and realizing that the idea of any identity in Buddhism is a form of attachment? How do you all reconcile the idea of this attachment and the concept of being trans and having that identity at the same time? This is something I've been really having a struggle with

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omg tysm for this raw and gorgeous rendition of this classic miraculous alchemy 💚👏🏻✨

I'm feeling inspired to journal now. Tysm I needed to hear this 🖤

Thank you for this...... I appreciate your consistency in offering peace-of-mind takes on different fears or topics.... I still feel very pessimistic about what AI will do😬 I like your idea of "internet needs my kindness," which maybe is where buddhists and spiritual people will start to take their service? If AI needs learns from the internet, then we can fundamentally fill the internet with "better" things for it to absorb? I just don't know....

very pretty but calming with the siren? I guess it's possible; Alan watts said "if you can't meditate in a boiler room, then you can can't meditate at all"

Wonderful video. I'm so grateful that this channel exists. I feel affirmed, loved, and welcomed. I feel the healing emptiness of my mind. It's something I'm desperate for as a genderqueer person who deeply struggles with depression and anxiety. At many parts of the narration, I felt like you read my mind and its concerns. You acknowledged that my fidgeting body was okay, my wandering mind was fine, and my fear of being alone with my own mind as indicative of a greater shame. "You'll only turn away from yourself if some part of you feels you're not worth being alone with. This is a symptom of shame, the opposite of self-love. And perhaps the most dangerous feeling." That hit very close to home. Thank you very much.

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Nice work! Is that a Tibetan singing bowl in the intro?

First narrated passage: 0:30 Second narrated passage: 5:40 Third narrated passage: 10:40

Since when did meditation become gay ?

I might be going against the stream here, but I think this idea of renouncement is rather toxic. Sure you might want to escape the deluge of ego if you haven't ever surfaced, but once you've flown along the winds of unconditional, platonic love, you start to realize that it isn't all there is, and that there lacks this spark of being truly alive. Conflict is FUN, strive is FUN, and while we might want to elevate our general standard of comfort and welfare, to not drown in ego, you might be much better off mastering ego, instead of renouncing it. Tame it, grow stronger, master it. Do not try to push it under the rug with weak will or it'll grab you in a chokehold and drag you in again anyway, ever a cycle of suffering. By mastering conditional love, you can be conscientious about it and not harm others doing so. And it also doesn't mean you don't have all the unconditional love already flowing through you. I mean, why not both? . If all you want is tap into the stream of unconditional love, and are sick of earthly things, why be born anyway? You might as well join the Sikhs and leave this planet.

Thank you for this lovely material to reflect on, I came across your channel a few months ago and always these videos 🙏

I love your channel so much as a trans girl who has found refuge in Buddhism. Thank you so much for guidance during a very tumultuous time in my life.

I love this channel, thank you for the readings you have posted, I may need to get the book.

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I'm very glad I found this.

you have completely missed the point. you are advocating with the identification of form. ridiculous.

Who do you trust most? Someone who tells you to transition by taking hormones and undergoing surgery, or someone who tells you to love the body you were born with? Of course men can be feminine and women can be masculine, but their gender identity can never change their sex.

Love this! Thank you as always for sharing. May other non-cis folks see this, and see their own inner light and beauty. You're loved, and you're worthy.

I don't understand the pronoun debate but I do understand the shedding of labels to become my authentic self. The less I try to identify myself, the less my ego can trip me up and the more peace I have within. Spirituality teaches me to let go of labels and definitions and less attachment to things.

Pride-- rejected by Buddhism. Sexual perversions- rejected by Buddhism. Perversion of human nature- rejected by Buddhism. Om Mani Padme Hum.

It's actually impossible to misgender someone, on transgenderism. Since they can never provide objective definitions for terms like "man" or "woman", you can never be correct/incorrect while using these terms (on their worldview). Ironically, it's only those of us who *reject* transgenderism that can accuse another of misgendering us in a coherent way.

Jesus Christ is returning very soon. He first came here peaceful and loving and saved us from the law of sin and death. When He returns, Jesus Christ will come back as a warrior. The love of this world is finite, selfish, and impure. It changes over time. But God's love is everlasting, selfless, pure, and unchanging. God sent His one and only Son Jesus Christ to die on the cross to save us from the law of sin and death, so that those who accept Jesus as their savior and repent (change their sinful ways) will spend eternity with our Heavenly Father. Before I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, I was depressed, anxious, suicidal, and suffered with addiction. I had no hope. But I called upon the Lord and He saved me. He made the impossible possible. He also healed an injury I had a long time ago. I couldn't walk without hobbling. I was in so much pain. The doctor told me it would take a year for it to heal. But I prayed to Jesus and healed me within seconds. Romans 5:8-10 Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! Isaiah 9:6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder, and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life" Peter 5:10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast If you would like to repent and accept Jesus as your savior pray this prayer: Dear Lord Jesus, I know I am a sinner. I believe You died for my sins. Right now, I turn from my sins and open the door of my heart and life. I confess You as my personal Lord and Savior. In Jesus's Holy name Amen.

Thank you for this, but I fear many will misunderstand you :( I'm getting the vibes of what like Hofstadter (author) said about Zen Buddhism, how our language can never truly grasp truth (zen's idea of truth?), and that maybe pronouns, for cis people as well as for trans people, can't represent the full complexity of a human being. For a cis person clinging to typical "2 genders" pronouns, they're clinging to an illusion of a simple, unmalleable way of seeing people... but for a trans or non-binary person, a pronoun like "they/them" possibly won't fully represent the complex beauty they embody as well?? If anything the statement is more how language can never fully delegate on behalf of a human, and their beautiful inner truth? I don't suspect you're saying pronouns "don't matter," if anything I think you're saying they're very important, but that ultimately, even for marginalized people, the bigger truths make our language and identities sort of dissolve (Classic buddhism "emptiness" argument)?? I mean doesn't buddhism have an idea around like "no-self" ? Like, relatively, for a person that's trans, their identity is important, but in the ultimate sense, their identity (like all identities) isn't important? Thank you for this video, hopefully it achieves what you set out to do with it ✌☮

"Pronouns are incompatible with reality" My thoughts exactly.

Thank you so much for this beautiful insight into my favourite film from a queer buddhist perspective (one that I am very fond of). Lovely performances of Sakamoto-sensei's legendary compositions, too! Wonderful video, thank you again.

I am so grateful for this channel. There is not enough trans-specific mindfulness and Buddhist content out in the world. Thank you for making this fantastic resource for the community. It is so significant and important to me and surely to many others.

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the Ksitigharba (other name for Jizo) Bodhisattva Sutra is really interesting. It tals about Shakyamuni Buddha (tp paraphrase) "sending into a heavenly realm full of beings from every corner of the universe." The sutra also goes on to say that Shakyamuni Buddha emitted "clouds of light" and sounds of a wide variety, from his forehead, and this somehow communicated with the heavenly beings.

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