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schizo noise
Приєднався 12 лис 2017
First, I was sick, then I was drawing, then I was writing music, and now I'm going somewhere...
Відео
Urban schizophrenia, voices, street sounds and music.
Переглядів 922 місяці тому
I went outside with a recorder and then finished the music at home. The city seemed calm to me, despite its noise. I tried to convey this mood with the music. Instead of people around me, the energy of my past paintings.
The gloomy weather outside makes me think gloomy thoughts
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The bad weather is messing with my creativity again. I'd love to move to a sunny country, but it's tough. So, I just have to let out all this built-up sadness and gloom.
Keyboard ASMR from Schizophrenia
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Today, I was working on some text, and at some point, I realized I wanted to make a video out of it-to capture how I'm feeling right now. I don't want to freak you out too much, or my doctor either, so I'm posting fewer videos for now. Hard months. Atmosphere The sounds of my keyboard The sounds of my street The sounds of my music The sound of my voice
my first animation
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Now I want to do something similar, what do you think?
The combination of painting and sculpture in Schizophrenia
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This time I tried to combine two dimensions 2D and 3D. The picture shows people divided into two communities. I also recorded the sound of the street and added a voice from a scientific article about how mental disorders help create.
What songs schizophrenics compose - I show you
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With this video clip I wanted to show how blurry a schizophrenic’s worldview is when he wants to concentrate on something. With music I tried to depict orderliness and emphasize silence.
My Schizophrenic room
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I turned off the lights, I want you to focus on my music. It material out to be not quite ordinary - with many strange sounds breaking through the standard parts. The result was an unusual atmosphere. I hope you haven't encountered anything like this?
Japanese samurai mask
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This painting features a samurai mask, a sunrise, a DNA strand, and rice fields. To make the samurai music, I wrote a two-instrument part and then played the audio track backwards. It turned out similar?
People came to the cemetery, it was raining, the priest was heard speaking
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I called this painting "Cemetery" The sky is overcast with gray clouds, heavy rain is pouring, there is dirt underfoot, but the process must take place. In the role of priest - my voice.
Map of my city. You know, there is a slight inaccuracy...
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I want to draw structures, even straight buildings, cutting lines. I decided to draw my city on the map. I used music from two old videos. Mixed it up, added effects, they fit very well here.
Dripping Heads - my January painting at the moment of stable remission
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I continue to work and take pills. On the one hand, remission continues, I do a lot of creative work, but the feeling of apathy is growing. There will probably be a break.
My old schizophrenic video chronicles and my new music
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My old schizophrenic video chronicles and my new music
Textures and forms of schizophrenia in one picture
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Textures and forms of schizophrenia in one picture
Split consciousness of schizophrenia. My last picture with destructive music.
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Split consciousness of schizophrenia. My last picture with destructive music.
My second schizophrenic painting in 2023 - human smile
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My second schizophrenic painting in 2023 - human smile
My latest paintings in 2022 (Schizophrenia diagnosis)
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My latest paintings in 2022 (Schizophrenia diagnosis)
Inside the human (Schizophrenia diagnosis)
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Inside the human (Schizophrenia diagnosis)
cool
honestly this puts into perspective the sheer power and velocity of aircraft that most photos n videos really cannot
Hope you’re doing okay
This goes so fucking hard
Love your stuff !! 🫠
🔥
yes
Wow!
sorry you’re having a hard time. Small steps 🖤
Really cool 🔥 (New sub)
Wow! Made me think of agony. Well made
Wow! 😮
Coincidence. I have. Laying awake at 4am on the couch, hearing remixes of original music and it goes something like this... shame I could never put it as skillfully as you.
Thank you for watching. If you have a strong desire to making sound, I think you should try it. The creative process gives incredible relief - it’s as if you are throwing out an excess of energy that was boiling inside you and creating pressure.
Awesome
Reminds me of those human bricks from all tomorrow’s
You do a great job creating so much atmosphere with very little.
:) Yes
why does this scare me
Its ok, I put a lot of energy into my work, it is deep dark from the depths. You just felt it, dont worry.
@@Schizonoise instant sub, love this kinda stuff! gives me sonder, n i like the feelin :DD
Remember me when you’re famous?
Thanks for the positive comment. It is unlikely that I will become famous, but consider it an agreement :)
The hell UA-cam recommending me?
This feels pretty ominous...
skibidi toilet, skibidi skibidi toilet.
i have no idea on what the fuck this is but i love it
Nobody: 3 am UA-cam recommendation:
nice
My youtube recommendations at 3:30 am:
luh crew
ALL MA FELLAS
This doesn't really say anything to me...
Me and the boys feeling schizophrenia in the basement!!!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
i'm on a sleep deprivation and starting to have hallucinations, so i feel this
Incredible!!
Very impressive!! It has a primal feel to it. Your channel looks really interesting and I've subbed 👍🏻
I don’t know if I have schizophrenia, but I do have really odd experiences that I can’t explain. Such as someone calling out my name when I was really young in my school cafeteria (this is the earliest thing I can remember of this happening idk what grade it was) but I just heard my name, but it didn’t sound like it came from someone else, it sounded like it came from inside my head, ever since that day stupid little child me thought that someone was reading my every thought and watching my every move (basically massive paranoia) and I did some really odd things. I’m still really paranoid but I’m not as paranoid as I was when this happened (it went on for several years) another thing I can remember happening related to said name calling incident, is that it has kept happening at random times throughout my life. Every now and again I still do hear someone calling my name and it’s really fucking batshit odd especially when no one is in the room. I’ve also experienced really weird shadow things, but the thing that has grown really bad lately is whispers kinda like this. But it’s a lot different, it’s super quit and faint and sometimes doesn’t even sound like a voice it’s just noise, and sometimes I hear ringing. When it does sound like a voice I have to really concentrate to hear what it says. I also have a shit memory, which I’ve heard is also something with schizophrenia. But my parents say it’s from my ADHD (I don’t like my parents I have some not super good memories of them as a kid that I don’t get). I don’t know if I have schizo, and I’m not going to self diagnose myself. But I also really don’t want to go to my parents, I don’t trust them. I remember the last time I tried to get help from them, they put me in a chokehold and slapped me (I really don’t understand why this happened and I don’t know if I want to know why) so I don’t really have many options atm
What kind of parents do you have? That’s fucking disgusting 😧
He hear things once in a while too
Cool it looks like black metal album
How did you even make this
kind of accurate
This is such an awe moment, a very beautiful piece of art.
i dont even know what to say, the way you can make such an interesting painting and then make the perfect sounds to go along with it is amazing. like holy smokes
Hi, thank you for your appreciation! First, an image is born in my mind. Then I draw the picture. While painting, music is born in my head. When I finish painting, I put the paints and brushes away in a box and immediately start creating music. I have to do it while all my thoughts are fresh. I try to work on myself. If the picture worsens, then the disease is worsening, so the concentration is maximum. My video clips are a diagnosis of the stage of my disease for my doctor. He's watching them.
And I’m gonna make sure that everyday I spend doesn’t go to waste either by educating and now I’m trying to start groups for this and charities etc plz everyone again remember to be kind in life you may be happy today but the whole time the person next to you wasn’t. I’m so sad for everyone suffering from any Illness but god is good also.
My nephew used to hear this ???? I’m so heartbroken for him that I have to have to have to educate myself as much as I can I know that the only thing I would ever show him was to show him I’m here I love you and be calm around him and try to be there and show him compassion and love and there’s nothing wrong with you your not crazy because he wasn’t and was the most intelligent human being I’ve ever have a hung out with smartest smartest my goodness what a beautiful mind I miss him and I’m trying now to educate myself and do as much as I can for people suffering from this disease it’s a disease just like any other disease just like having glucose or having whatever illnesses we all go through remember to be kind remember to be kind human beings in life you don’t know the day who might have needed it please be kind
Hello, If his form is not severe, engage in creativity - it helps a lot. Music, drawing, poetry, architecture, origami, working with fabric/leather, and so on.
He died in February of suicide with his fathers gun. I can’t begin to tell you the pain I have inside I wish everyday that I was dead after him. The sadness is my soul you can’t fathom he was very introverted and was the only and the love he had was beyond he started changing right after high school grad. I miss him more then the water in the ocean
And my religion if Islam has helped me soooo much with coping it’s real there’s no Contradictions it answers all of your questions when you have one inside I just read it makes sense of this world and my nephew and everything so my religion did help me a lot but also my pain and religion are two different things because my pain for him surpasses everything
@@asianagi4304 I'm so sorry
No don’t be I’m coping and I’m tryna keep going for him and do tnings for him to bring awareness in where I am living the community etc but I’m dead inside honesty I can pretend all I want and I wish I had learned more about it
Wow! 2:13 !!! 👌🏻✌🏻
wow!
yes
Music sounds great
😮
Glad you’re doing well. I remember finding your channel a couple years ago
Incredible drawings, very unique. These are inspired from what you see?
wow! The mind is such a complex and fascinating thing. I subscribed to your channel a few weeks ago and I’m barely tuning in. I know it’s hard to share something especially if you know many won’t understand your experience in this world. This is only a glance to your life. Thank you for sharing
Hi, thanks for your support. It’s hard for many to look at my work, I appreciate deep viewers🙂
@@Schizonoise yeah, np. I deal with anxiety disorders and am interested in psychology so it’s always interesting seeing other people’s journeys with different issues. I can’t imagine dealing with something like this but at least you are turning it into something educational. Hope you’re alright in your journey