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Wow, love the blanket!

I'm 28 and I don't remember much of anything from my childhood, even from my teens. I'm assuming this is due to cptsd because I grew up in 2 very unstable households and there was a lot of verbal and emotional abuse as well as some physical. But I have a weird gut feeling that something else happened and I think I have some decent evidence too: 1. I was regularly asked by my mom and grandparents if I was being molested 2. I'm scared of most men and have issues with intimacy 3. A male parental figure gave me porn and often talked about sex with me when I was in 8th grade 4. I have a blurry snippet of a memory from when I was around 4-6 of being kissed on the mouth by that same male parental figure, alone in a dark room (not my bio father and he was only dating my mom at the time) 5. My uncle who lives right next to my dad called me and my cousin and sister "hot girls" when we were around 12 and my dad has since joked that he (uncle) would sit at the window with a bottle of lotion and watch us play, and 6. Another boyfriend of my mom's who I lived with when I was only 1-4 has since been arrested for child pornography. That's kind of a lot, right? What do you think?

Hormonal changes in aging can lead to memories getting released. . .

After my father died several years ago I feel depth sadness. I can't even attended his funeral because I'm hospitalized, no one inform me when he died. Because I'm in critical condition due, and I got home got the information my dad die. He's in my memory us a responsible person and family man. But when I sleep in the one place is home that used to be my parents room. I got strange memory when I was so young that my dad SA me. At first it's a dream, but it gradually so vivid. That's so complicated, all his kindness that's literally out of his character. And mybe he just kiss and touch me as loving or compassion to child. But the fear in my body is unusual. Okee I'll stop I want to cry

It's beautiful!!

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A mug rug would be awesome for a new crocheter. That said a washcloth or dish cloth would be as well. I crochet and have been making blankets lately. I’ll probably make another cardigan or top soon. I just have trouble deciding which pattern that I feel compelled to make. Thank you for sharing Christian content too. I listen to all of your vlogs. You can never have too much god. I enjoy people sharing him. I enjoy church but also individuals talking about Christ. So thank you. GOD IS GOOD!

Tell me more about donations to Pine Ridge, are you sending them to a contact person there that will distribute them?

What is christian about knitting. Everyone knits. Not everyone has an angry christian cat.

i just started watching your channel today and its so nice to have a christian based youtube podcast to watch while i crochet :) i loved when you talked abut asking the Lord to give you creativity !! so true!!!

Years later and re watching and just wanted to tell you how much healing this video has done for me…. It took me a very long time to realize it but what you are sayin is so true…. Trauma is a virus in our body….its toxic and has to be released or it will destroy us. Thank you and please keep this posted as I like to refer people to it For those watching lease consider EMDR to heal. It’s a powerful tool Christ uses Thanks

This video is really good. Last Christmas holidays and I had bought a Santa dancing with a small girl. I knew as I looked at it on my shelf that it made me uneasy. A memory of my step grandfather talking to me behind a barn, I can't remember further,maybe later..

Thank you for the reminders today of how God is so good!

I absolutely love your energy. Just watching you and listening to you explain your creations puts a big smile on my face. Thank you for sharing!

Thankyou thankyou thankyou Xooxoxo

Hi, God sent me to your podcast in answer to prayer for a knitting podcast that was Christian based. The numeric information you gave pertaining to the book The Ultimate Guide to Understanding the Dreams You Dream I am hoping will prove to be helpful. Thank you.

The impulse for revenge does happen, and you are right. I still pay the consequences of that decision. I am grateful for this video.

Woah, very eye opening video. Thank you for sharing your story and kind words🙏 When i was a teen up until my 20s, i had this memory that i was confused about whether it was real or a dream, and i was ashamed to even think it. It involved my aunts husband and her son that was the same age as me. Now in my 30s, I had FINALLY forgotten all about that memory. But just a few weeks ago, it came up in a conversation where my mom told me that when i was 4, i told her that uncle was hurting me & she put a stop to it. Then i confirmed that it happened when we saw him again 5 years later and i asked if he was going to hurt me again. Finding out that the memory was real made me angry, but also relieved. Although when i try to recall that memory, my mind is completely blank, because I'm having memory problems that I'm seeing a neurologist for. I don't know if it's a gift or a curse lol cause I've gone to therapy, which has helped immensely, but i sort of feel like not knowing what exactly happened isn't going to let me heal 100%🤔

Thank you! Inflation is terrible! When I was in medical school, I told one of the administrative doctors that I did not have time to read for pleasure. He said Catherine there’s a time to buy books there’s time to read books. I feel the same way about Yarn. Stocking up when you have more money is wise.

The yarns that costs about the same now a days are smaller skeins most of the time (shrink-flation). It’s sad how much more expensive yarns are. I’m so thankful that I stocked up before I retired. I’m in an apartment and my rent went up almost $100 this year. Anyway your work is beautiful. I appreciate you. God bless you and your family.

This is the first video of yours I have come across. I"m hoping that you continued to put out videos. I love watching and supporting a sister in Christ.

Dr. Kirby, Thank you so much for sharing your story. You have a natural talent for making videos. I'm also a survivor and it was so surprising when you said The Courage to Heal might have caused you to recover memories. I was 50 and had started to work through The Courage to Heal for some mild sexual abuse issues and then I began to recover memories of being sexually abused by my father. It was bad--oral rape. It happened repeatedly starting when I was around 7. I still don't know when it ended. I was fortunate. My parents were divorced already and everyone believed me, except perhaps for a few people on my father's side. My father claimed, "He didn't remember doing that." It took me about 4 years of recovery work before I really even wanted to move forward with my life. Fortunately, EMDR has been very effective for me in reducing flashbacks and panic attacks. Grieving was extremely important for me as well. I'm so sorry you did not receive the support you needed from family members. Recovery work has given me my life back. I hope it has done the same for you.

Newsflash. Boys are SA abused too. This is not unique to females.

Yes, these memories have come to me recently at 42 years old. My father when I was little, before he thought I would ever remember. Absolutely disgusting stuff. Thank you for sharing.

I remember what happened to me when I was 4-5 years old. Sometimes I wish I could forget.

I am so sorry about Jake, see ya soon Sharon

I feel God led me to this. Thank you for the heartfelt video.

My cousin had a baby two years ago and seeing my uncle babysit her is bringing very unsettling feelings for me. My mom stopped letting him babysit me when I was young. And he has so many red flags. I don’t know what to do. I can’t remember much of my childhood but he scares me. And I don’t want the same outcome for my cousin’s daughter. He posts creepy weird things on instagram all the time too. I don’t know what to do because I don’t have any solid evidence or recollection. I just know he’s not safe

Abortion survivors killing themselves on the date they were supposed to be aborted? Thats totally wild a fetus can know the date! I almost don’t believe it… do you have any sources?

I had a feeling that triggered a memory. It was " I'm trying to help you, why are you yelling at me" and the memory of me pulling my pajama pants down so that I wouldn't be woken up when "he" pulled them down. I was definitely physically abused, but I'm not sure about this. It would be molestation, probably not rape at least.

Hi, please can i do you a question? I see a video of repressing memory of sexual abuse and i have a personal question . Is very important to me

Yes, yes, yes! You are right about everything. 🙏🏻

Hello I grew up and I always grew up thinking something was off in my life. I didn't know what. Ive been an alcoholic or some form of addict my whole life as long as i could remember. I recently started to wonder why Im so effed up mentally and after seeing something on tv it triggered me to look up the history of the Roman catholic preschool I attended. Doing so I found out that the Friar was a serial child abuser. He molested 9 boys starting in 1987. The church would move him around from parish to parish after he was found out. They finally removed him from the church in 2002. After finding this info out i started to question If i could have possibly been one of the abused. I would have been only 3 or 4 at the time. Are these thoughts of an over active imagination or is there something real to them??? I think I would have been a good target for abuse as to this friar preyed on children with family problems. My mother at the time went through 1 miscarriage and I was born with a cleft lip and pallette. My speech was not understandable in any way at the time except to maybe my parents. Even they had hard times understanding me that young. My mom passed away when i was 41/2 years old due to cardiac problems. I think i was still at the preschool during this time. I would have been very vulnerable at this time. My dad was often at work during that time then after my preschool my aunt would pick me up. That was the routine until I moved to Florida at 5 yrs old. Its just odd because i never could make proper relationships with people. Father brian Mckeon moved to Florida and died. I don't know if ill ever truly know!!!

I recommend doing voice memos if journaling isn’t for you

I un-repressed my memories

That is a very pretty blanket. I like how you did the colors with the variged and blue and green.

Good morning. Thank you for sharing 🙏❤

Good morning !😊 Its nice to see a Christian lady on here. 😊❤

I am afraid of the answers...I was triggered by trying to change the diaper of a child I was babysitting...he was struggling against me...I started hyper ventilating and had to lay down on the floor

I love you, thank you for being open about your story

That’s so true about how nobody wants to hear about it. I lost my friend who I was her maid of Honor for at her wedding because I was trauma dumping my SA too.

My father also threw out all of out family Fotos and i always thought to mysefl it was so i dont remebr anything . I do have a scar in my Genetils . I havent asked the doctor i m scared to lnow .

I knownin my heartvi was abused as a baby or bery young toddler . I cant remeber . But i think it hallenes at my grandmas house . All my Unclea are diagusting . Cheaters and abusers . It was either kne of them but almetimes j feel like it was my father . When i was a child i remeber somkne would like stare at my Dace On tol of me Until i would fal asleep . That memorie has always been with me Z and i alwaya hated my Father always . U am 42 amd j havent asked my mother . And j sont talk tk ang family Members . Shes the only one and i am Close tk not . Skmething hallened and i feel it .

Hi Catherine! Yes, that chicken is cute. All your items are nice, but I especially love that pink blanket. Funny, I spent some time on that same story in my broadcast. But I had a little different twist I shared. Have a blessed week! 🤗

You look so nice 😁(btw love the video)

Wonderful!! I'm a Christian and it is so good to find a Christian crocheter !

I am 68 years old and a male and always had inklings of sexual abuse. I was abused in other ways and had two hospitalizations for suicide ideation. One evening recently I watched a clip from an old All in the Family episode where she -Gloria had been sexually abused and the tears started flowing and went on for quite sometime. Now I am having memories of my mom disrobing in front of me as a child and once completely when I was 10 years old. The sexual innuendo was thick in my growing up years. Anyway being male and older like me is kind of awkward as it seems more females are victims. But it seems I am grieving now. Just thought I would throw that out there.

I started therapy about a year ago, and through the process, I remembered that I was molested by a man whom I used to play with when I was about 6 or 7. I’m a 45 year old man now, but had substance abuse issues throughout my teens (started drinking alcohol when I was 11, heroin when I was 12…), so a lot of older memories had been dulled, and I went on trying to fix my dysfunctional life. I would work hard to get opportunities and self sabotage, due to anxiety and depression, low self worth etc. besides being molested, I have had other significant traumas throughout my youth, and I’m certainly these played a role in my often dysfunctional ability to cope with life, which was often dismissed by adults as me being “lazy”. I have read comments from some people who have suffered sexual assault, who have said that when you experience something like that, it’s crystal clear and you don’t forget, and the repressed memories isn’t really a thing, which has made me second guess myself, and think I’m crazy. It’s hurtful to hear such things, because I feel like my pain is dismissed.

How did you cope with your families lack of care and empathy...I have the same 😢

I'm a man, but I understand that sensation of remembering something terrible happened, and not being able to retrieve it, until something triggers that memory. I just recently had a flashback of my uncle grooming me when I was little, the only thing I remember is him caressing my belly in an inappropriate way. And I'm very conflicted, because he was a man I help in high regard. Also, he's dead now, and my father too. Now I remember my sister telling me our father touched her, but he's dead as well, and our mother doesn't give a hoot about it I guess my family was screwed up from the start.