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I hope everyone reading this comment is safe and warm ❤

La photo a aussi un grand role et colle avec perfection au melodie. Un moment partagé et suspendu, dans une retraite a la campagne avec des pulls bien chaud et un vent legerement froid sur le visage, avec la vie devant nous et ce sentiment qu'on n'arrivais pas encore a definir, mais qui faisait du bien au cœur, on esperais que cetait cela la vie, et etions content de vivre.

Ecouter le son tout en lisant les commentaires m'apaise, comme si la vie se résumé a ceci, des êtres qui partage leur ressentis, leur histoire, connecté par un fil de commentaire. C'est beau. Je vous aime.

Its weird when a foggy dark area can be both scary and calming at the same time.

I am struggling and I can't find any words to explain what I'm feeling. It's illogical and doesn't make any sense. I want to heal from all my issues but I don't know how. It's ruining my relationships with family and friends. Please help

My best friend and another really close friend have been crucial in me finding out who I am under the layers of disguise I use to keep my family happy. I would likely be in both deep depression and denial about it if it weren't for them. I don't know if they'll ever find this, but I hope they know that, if, through some sick turn of events, I were in such a situation, I would give the world up for them. They are a source of healing from the damage my family and past friends have accidentally caused. You two mean everything to me.

There was something here once. I'm extremely high-masking of what I have reason to believe is Autism and ADHD. But it combined with what is likely an anxiety disorder of some sort, and now I'm exceptionally high-masking. If a family member criticizes some aspects of my behavior or thinking process even once, I tend to modify my ways of existence to fit their standards. It usually takes 2-4 times of criticism to change who I am for non-family, depending on how much power they have over me. There was something here once. I am no longer a child. I'm older than I should be when learning as much about myself as I am. Something was taken from me besides my childhood. I can't remember who I was before I changed to fit my family's standards. Was there ever a before? There was something here once. There are a lot of gaps in my memory in places there shouldn't be. What was forgotten, I'll never know, as I tend to remember things better than anyone else in my family. Are the missing memories just trauma? Maybe they were simply uneventful. Or maybe it's just my past happiness missing. There was something here once.

atlease, i am not alone …………….u guys pls stay strong❤❤❤❤im proud of you

I was always alone in highschool, either literally or with people who didnt actually care about me when it wasn't convenient for them to. But there was this one girl, we both had anxiety and we'd talk from time to time. We weren't super close yet she trusted me with so much of her secrets that I've kept to this day. I've just been thinking about her alot. How she was the best person in that school, how beautiful she was, how much i admired her. I was able to find out her Instagram account because i was curious how she'd been and shot a dm. This was a few weeks ago, and while it isn't long I just know she dealt with a lot more than just anxiety. I pray she's okay, where ever she is. You never deserved what you got.

Maybe I’m not the only one who feels alone after all🤍

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love these sounds. really resonates with me. thank you!

I used to live in a house that almost everything was green . I started liking green a lot. There was a tree in the house that was so beautiful. That place has so many memories. There was something there once and I still think about it . Tbh , I really don’t understand life especially now that I’m a bit grown. I think I understood it better as a child . But I do know that life doesn’t give second chances to love a place or even people sometimes. I really miss my old house and all the people .

Back on that night we had a phonecall together and you said “You just need to find someone who’s the best for you.” Well.. the first person who came through my mind was you. And after some time we ended up together. Kinda wish I knew where that would lead to..

I can feel the sadness and the pain in all of these comments. We have all lost someone. Someone we can't replace. This playlist brings on the most painful mixture of emotions. This is a combination of longing, regret and sorrow. An oscillation between light and heavy sadness.

What IS today tomorrow won't be left even a segment.

Maybe never 😫😭 💔🥀

Rare, a title that matches its content.

I am here crying after a toxic argument (conversation) with mom till my eyes go red ......

Suddenly. Just as life gives you everything it suddenly takes it away from you. When you least expect it you meet the love of your life, but when you least expect it leaves. When you least expect it you make good friends, but when you least expect it they stop contacting you. It will hurt you and you will be confused, because you never thought that it would end suddenly. Nothing in this life forever and if you get attached easily life’s gonna be hard. So love all you can and give all of you, because even does it have an end make that end worth it.

I will never be able to be my old self again, because I have grown and life has forced me to be stronger, however I know that despite the pain and tears shed, there is that happy and innocent little girl who just wanted to be loved and respected. She’s still in me. I see her when I do things I love, that makes her happy and proud. She’s not dead yet, cus when I laugh, when I dance, when I’m myself I see her. I see my little me.

Life has been difficult so I create my own reality where things don't matter and everything turns out as I would like although nothing is reality, doing that brings me peace of mind and happiness. I wish it was real.

Why do we have to struggle in life to get something simple like good food , roof on top of our head ,happiness, and better education. I mean, think about it , it doesn't have to be this way, and i wonder why it is like that. It's not that the world is unfair. I wonder if there's a world where ...... i mean ... yeah, i got nth

I still remember how you'd wake up at 3 in the morning for a cup of coffee. You'd drink it and listen to the birds in the morning. You'd sit in the utility room and scroll on Facebook or your computer while smoking a cigarette before going back to bed. I still remember how you'd be the first person to call me on my birthdays at two in the morning. How you were the first and only one to ask how I was doing. I still remember the way you'd sit and eat dinner with me. How we'd tell jokes from the joke book I got you until we ran out of good ones to find. How we'd play games until it was time for bed. I still remember how 11 was always your bedtime, no matter what. How impatient and stubborn you were. How you'd never ask for help. I still remember how loving you were. How forgiving. And I feel you in the smell of cigarette smoke. I think of you every time there's a joke to tell and no one around to listen. I know you would've forgiven me. But I can't forgive myself.

I realised I was just pretending my feelings, my thoughts and actions until now.

I feel like I don’t have any memories of past. I only remember feelings of dread, short lived happiness, purposelessness , and incapacity. I always felt I was failing myself even tho I never was at rock bottom. But when my friends left me, family always not present emotionally, and my work failed miserably, I felt alive. Alive with pain. Sometimes I hope someone hits me, curses me and drags me out of this delirium. At Least pain is real. I don’t want numbness. I sacrificed a lot of time. Not anymore. I want to feel. I want my memories to be real. Even if it’s selfish to ask for given that my life is fairly okay. It’s hard

Sometimes time, itself need a space to take a break and relax, so buddy be relaxed and don't feel like they hurt you, they tried but no one's able disturb my buddy's faith yeah? so be powerful.. i trust in you.. because some big challenges, come with big failiures. as in order to make them solve yeah:? so enjoy, let it hurt and accept what you lose because, " if you didn't loose you will never get to know the value of losing" I know the things youre wondering about is so much precious in your life but some diamonds needs to get experience workers to get refine and shine in the world so be Diamond, That values more than Gold

Longing for someone you never knew, wishing you had the chance, but fate works in weird ways. I’ll never understand why this world took you away from me. I wanted to be a big brother ever since I met you. An for 7 long years you were the highlight of every single day... I’ll never forgive the people that took you from me. I’d do anything to feel your touch, hear you laugh, hear you cry. You were my world, an now you don’t even know who I am. I lost who I was because of this pain. My baby brother. Confused, hurt, betrayed, 9 years later, an you still don’t even know why. Or who I am. It hurts more than any wound, any relationship break up…. I love you Bro….forever an always…❤

It hurts everyday but you carry on and do your best.

It may have hurt me and her, but it was needed, i didn’t exactly know why at the time but im starting to heal from how bad it damaged me, i wanna cry so bad

I have my national exams in less than two months. I am not ready for life after that, possibly be accepted in another city from parents, might be married as usually people get married early here, work etc... acting like a woman, i dont see in myself doing that. All this time i have always imagined myself studying and pursing medicine but never knew the feeling of growing up, i guess i always thought i would die before uni. And i don't know the people that i have loved all along, to me they were my perfect piece, just yesterday i was having conversations wiith my best friends of 11 years, and it was as if the colors were fading away, they werent so kind, they shamed people in the chat, talk about boys but not in cute innocent way, and i even gave them a trick for solving physics, they both put me down and said hhhhh you now know that, and i felt like a dummy. And yesterday i called it quits with them in my mind. In a stage of my life where only my mom understands me. Love you mom.

Please include me in your prayers. Life has been tough lately but I am recovering❤

I believe in you

I should have gave my best to get u but i failed :

Its hurts when u love someone very badly bt u can't tell her because she is already becomes someone else :)

I know there is 0.000% that u will be mine bt i still wait fr u and ,I still hope it's u and me in the end :) chudenn_laa❤

I cry every night and every morning. My heart is completely shattered. I just want to push. Opiates into my veins until I pass away. I just want to fade away. Everything hurts. I was doing good for so long. And then she broke my heart and abandoned me. I did nothing but help her. I did more than anyone else did. Everything was taken for granted. Forgotten and cast aside. It hurts so much. I don't want to feel this anymore. Pls god make it stop hurting 🙏🏾

Lo admito, me siento de la vrga pero esta música me ayuda a relajarme

to all who reads this, i promise you that everything you go through will surpass and you will see the horizon again. i am living proof that everything does get better as i have been at rock bottom for the past 5 years, yet i am here, finally smiling and enjoying my life. i was once suicidal, counting up to 12 attempts, but i am clean now and i promise you that if my situation improved, yours will too. hold on a little longer and feel everything you need to feel - youll figure it out, you always do <3 take care. i am praying for you endlessly.

Never had any friend. But i have myself ❤

Save it

*“When the person who gave you memories, becomes a memory”*

well my pet died...i dont remember when..i am not good with timings...well the time he died was around 11 in the morning and I was in school..and the thing around that time there was a burning sensation in my heart..i told my bsf about it and she said nothing but the silence was good..when i reached home i went to my balcony...the place where his small home used to be..i didn't notice that his cage was not there because we had two rabbits..he was the eldest one...in hurry i just kept my school dress in the machine and went to have my lunch.. after lunch i went to check on him...and it struck in my mind..i aksed my mom she told he died... around 11 in the morning....i am still in guilt because i didn't cried like others when they loose their pet..instead i was happy that he died cuz now he wouldn't have to suffer from the cold weather... because i knew in the heaven it would be nice and warm...and next day i gave my second pet to someone because i didn't wanted him to die also...i do still miss both of them and whenever i look at the corner i remember them sitting and doing nothing but staring at me..

Мне 23, и мне не комфортно с собой. Я не имею друзей, знакомых, живу один, и нет никаких сил чтобы изменить жизнь, каждый день я прокуриваю свою жизнь, знаете курение один из видов легального самоубийства.. Нет выхода из этой дистопии антиутопии. К счастью для такого затворника и стенающегося человека как я, эта музыка помогает хоть как то высвобождать эмоции, хотя бы рыдая..

to spirit, the best horse I truly have ever met. I miss you every day sweet girl. you were such a bright light and kind soul. I know to some this may sound stupid but she really was more than an animal to me. she had this overwhelming presence of comfort and home. she understood me. the night after I found she died I cried so hard knowing I’d never pet her again, ride her again, see her again. that’s the hardest part with death. they truly are just- gone. and I guess I wish I hadn’t taken it for granted. I miss you sweetheart.

LOVE YOU

After seeing my drunken dad almost got hit by car while crossing the road, i got really mad (probably sad) at my parents and ran off while crying, i didnt know why i was crying when im 18 and i cried in random playground with homeless drunks around me, somehow i felt much comfortable crying next to them than next to my parents. After crying i decided to walk home because i knew im not safe there, but i didnt want my siblings to know that i cried so i decided to continue crying in playgroud infront of our apartment. After done crying until this playlist ended i decided to walk to convenience store to grab something to drink then i saw my rapist ex, who took my first everything and emotionally abused me, now here i am crying in another playground i dont even know where.

I feel like I'm stuck in a deep hole I want to end it now

There was a time when I was young. I dreamed of loving someone with all my heart. The thrill of thinking I would someday give up all of life’s easy pleasures in exchange for the long term challenges that committing to true love would bring. I chased a dream for 10 years that left me isolated, sacrificing all the opportunities to meet new people. I don’t know when I gave up on finding love. I don’t know if I ever will be capable of making the right choices to have a family. I don’t want anything more than to know what it’s like to be loved for being myself and to enjoy the moments in between my memories with someone who wants the same. I hope we all can dream a new dream and find the love we were born to feel, share, and give back to others

All our ache exposed under the illuminating lights