Fr John Ramsay gave the Holy Week retreat at Ushaw in April 1987, and one of the highlights was this meditation. Audio recordings of his talk were made available afterwards, though these were not from the Ushaw conference. Fr Ramsay died 10 years later, aged 70, and an interesting obituary about him can be read here: www.heraldscotland.com/news/12286752.john-ramsay/