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akabluntcash
Приєднався 13 чер 2019
20살
Dear diary,
I'm 20 now, would you believe it?
As is half the population, I was never a fan of my birthday as I only saw it as a marker of passing time which only created anxiety that I had one less year to live and how much, if at all, I had developed in any way from the year before. This idea was under the pretence that life and progress is a linear incline, which it definitely is not but the once-a-year “celebration” acted as a prompt to ask myself that question despite fearing the exact question - it shakes me to my core.
This year I went about it differently. My entire (short) life, I always thought that it was maybe conceded to want to celebrate my own birthday and thought it was more mature to spend it quietly but this year, I was lucky enough to have friends suggest first to spend time with me and I'm forever grateful for that. I spent my time with people I love and the week admittedly was hectic but single-handedly the most positively memorable birthday thus far. I enjoyed every single minute that I spent with people in contrast to last year where I didn’t see anyone, but at the same time that I am on this high, there is a lingering question vocalizing itself to the rhythm of my heart (dramatic).
내가 올해를 여느때나 혼자 보냈다면 정신적으로 작년보다, 재작년보다 더 나아져 있었을까? 지금의 내 안정은 나 자신이 아닌 오로지 타인에서 받은 영향이라면 난 나아진게 아니라 그저 운 좋게 기댈만한 사람들을 찾아서 순간적으로 느끼는 안도감은 아닐까?
혹여나 이 질문들의 답이 내가 원하는 답이 아닐까봐 여태 모르겠다고 단정만 지으며 회피하다 되돌아보니 내가 어디를 향해 걷고 있는지도 모르겠는 지경이지. Maybe I will have all this figured out by age 21.
Despite all my sticky turmoil, I really do appreciate everyone that wished me a happy birthday and whoever is reading this right now (breaking the fourth wall), I love you all.
Narae
I'm 20 now, would you believe it?
As is half the population, I was never a fan of my birthday as I only saw it as a marker of passing time which only created anxiety that I had one less year to live and how much, if at all, I had developed in any way from the year before. This idea was under the pretence that life and progress is a linear incline, which it definitely is not but the once-a-year “celebration” acted as a prompt to ask myself that question despite fearing the exact question - it shakes me to my core.
This year I went about it differently. My entire (short) life, I always thought that it was maybe conceded to want to celebrate my own birthday and thought it was more mature to spend it quietly but this year, I was lucky enough to have friends suggest first to spend time with me and I'm forever grateful for that. I spent my time with people I love and the week admittedly was hectic but single-handedly the most positively memorable birthday thus far. I enjoyed every single minute that I spent with people in contrast to last year where I didn’t see anyone, but at the same time that I am on this high, there is a lingering question vocalizing itself to the rhythm of my heart (dramatic).
내가 올해를 여느때나 혼자 보냈다면 정신적으로 작년보다, 재작년보다 더 나아져 있었을까? 지금의 내 안정은 나 자신이 아닌 오로지 타인에서 받은 영향이라면 난 나아진게 아니라 그저 운 좋게 기댈만한 사람들을 찾아서 순간적으로 느끼는 안도감은 아닐까?
혹여나 이 질문들의 답이 내가 원하는 답이 아닐까봐 여태 모르겠다고 단정만 지으며 회피하다 되돌아보니 내가 어디를 향해 걷고 있는지도 모르겠는 지경이지. Maybe I will have all this figured out by age 21.
Despite all my sticky turmoil, I really do appreciate everyone that wished me a happy birthday and whoever is reading this right now (breaking the fourth wall), I love you all.
Narae
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멋진 여자는 울지 않는다, 멋진 여자는 거울을 본다, 멋진 여자는 잠꾸러기, 멋진 여자는 굴하지 않는다, 멋진 여자는 용기를 갖는다, 멋진 여자는 외로워하지 않는다, 멋진 여자는 조금만 운다, 멋진 여자는 거짓말하지 않는다, 멋진 여자는 손톱을 다듬는다, 멋진 여자는 야경을 본다, 멋진 여자는 딸기를 먹는다
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if you look closely, you can see my dark circles getting darker throughout the video..
Walnut needs more screen time :)
really nice video :) and happy late birthday
@Icehazard thank you sm!
what city do you live in?
@@zhiffyui Secret..🤐
S tier video
Ahh paintings are so good! Loved seeing the BTS too of the process/having fun with friends
@@TheraSine Thank you, I was kind of wondering what you would think about these set of paintings!
the pixar meme hahahahahah so good
congrats on the exhibition, you did an amazing work, especially with the bent painting, such an interesting idea!!
Need more of this! So satisfying
@@Nilasha.b oh stop🤭
Omg, was this my first vocal debut in your video 🤪?!! Am honoured 💅💅
No if you look back you’re prob in like four vids by now😭
작품 만드시는 모습 너무 힙하고 멋져요💪🏻✨
@@sonakimm 착한 말씀 너무 감사해요..🙇🏻♀️
hello! I came to this channel and I realized that your profile photo is a meme of a former president of Argentina hahaha (I'm from Argentina). Nice video!
@@MorenAaronDiaz oh really?? I had no clue, I just thought he was a funny silly guy🥸
your obvi so talented you dont need limit yourself by trying to be artistically legible...monochrome painting is hard because 1. it was only subversive 65 years ago 2. its total cohesion makes it hard to interpret for details/drama etc. But i think you should allow more mistakes/ awkwardness. Michael krebber does this with his minimalism and it works really welll The center panel being a center line is just so on the nose. making such pleasing paintings (think etsy search: black abstract wall art line monochrome chic) and then to also be totally legible (obvious) makes them look more and more like decorations for interiors, whether or not that was the point There feels like alot is being held back but in a "Im hesitant to paint so i will just produce something most people will say is pretty" and not in a "Im hesitant to paint so i will paint black as a cancellation/meditation of/on the complexities of my practice the paintings are well made though and would look great in pretty much any room/establishment. but is that what you wanted... I love your videos please keep making them!
Hey, sorry for the late reply but I wanted to make sure I fully, or as much as I could, understood what you’ve written. Firstly, thank you for taking the time to give me the critical feedback I needed. I do imagine it took some time to type out and I really appreciate it. Secondly, I agree that my art is self-limiting with the idea of something needing to look good at the back of my mind. My personality in and of itself remains too aware with how I may be presenting myself at any given moment and to be told that that trickles down into my art is something I direly needed to be pointed out. Hence why a lot of what I’ve made exists more as an aesthetic image than I would like for it to. You’ve posed some good questions for me to think about and I hope I can receive future feedback if possible. Thanks again φ(^∇^ )
love the vibes and your paintings!!!
Thanks so much, I just watched (and loved) your videos
aewsme Sauce
man with no whatttt? hahhwhahha love it also love the red and black sweater outfit
@@sososoboringv5718 literally my jaw dropped when I first saw it
you’re so cool !! I loved thiiiiis
@@n1k1t4_ 😸😸🤩thank you
Hi can u make subtitles font bold because its not clearly visible
@@tesarface2004 I will take that into consideration next time, thanks so much!
hi, let life guide you but I hope you keep making videos, I really like your approach <3
Omg thanks so much, I really appreciate it🥹
so cute)
Lit vlog
been wanting to start filming my process, I'm a fine artist myself. your video really motivated me to do so~~ keeep going <33
I don't do much to keep record of my entire process but I dont see why not, I think you should go for whatever you want to do!
hiii i stumbled across this video randomly aswell, i just wanted to tell you to keep going!! <3
randomly stumbled upon your video but im glad i stayed! your quiet vlog is interesting as well as real? felt like watching someones diary haha love the exhibitions and the at home hair salon :)
Thank you so much!! I appreciate it
i like this, keep it up! You can do it!
your room looks cool....
she’s my wife I’m so proud of her LMAO
hiii, I'm curious; what is this art piece about and is it the result final?
Hi, the assignment was to paint on an abnormal surface, so freedom to paint on fabric, found material, etc, but I've constructed three 5" by 5' panels that come together to compose a 15' piece; I have the final installation in my april vid!
everything looks so calm
YOURE VIBE IS SO COOL
Thanku😸☺️
This is so cute
what do you study?
I study Visual Art! 😇
love the absence of bgm
Ty! The closest we're getting to a bgm is my humming
same. sometimes i get tired of music. i love the sound of.. nothing? LOL
Lovely!
I like your vibe, very artistic !
Love how calm this video is, very nice
Beautiful ❤
❤❤❤
작업 잘 보고 갑니다~
오 감사합니다🤩
now i need the bob ross energy drink
I literally bought it in a trance and when i went the next day? to buy another one, they were gone😲
The painting I'm working on from 1:10 to 4:45 is for an artist emulation assignment of Rae Klein!!
You're so stunning UGH
Ty😸🦊ྀིྀི
잘했어 잘했어요 👏👏🖤
you look like you belong in "nevertheless" the vibes are immaculate
I am so interpreting that as in you thinking i look like hansohee, idc ily
@@akabluntcashi actually did babe 🤭
love the calm vibes❤ also you’re so pretty!
so peaceful and fun at the same time🌷🐝
first time seeing something real on UA-cam... Just a peaceful and slow pace video. Commenting so that UA-cam algorithms makes you viral!🧡
interesting
nice art