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Internal Monologue - A Mental Illness Short Film
This is a very raw look into my internal monologue. The sad reality of depression and suicidal ideation is that these are lifelong conditions. I am in my best mental health ever, and still, this voice remains within me. I am able to fight back against its lies, and recognize that the things it tells me are lies, but still the voice remains. I have constant passive suicidal ideation and have since around the age of 8. The truth is this may be my forever, constantly having a voice in the back of my head pointing out my every flaw and putting a voice to my biggest fears. My reality is not unique.
September is Suicide Awareness and Prevention Month, and instead of making yet another talking video, I thought that the best way to let you know what it is like inside of my head was to give you a literal look inside of my head. There are no exaggerations here. This is my life.
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Відео

What They Don't Tell You About Ostomys | Ostomy Diaries
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Having an ostomy I'd about as fun as you'd think it would be, but I still wouldn't trade it for going back to the horrid life I was living. I have a new lease on life and with that I hope to work on advocacy for chronic illness awareness and improve people's perceptions of those, like myself, who are disabled. If you like my content feel free to follow my other Socials! : linktr.ee/AutumnSkylar
A Day In The Life On A Bad Day With Chronic Illness | Ostomy Diaries
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Yes, the voice over was choppy, but I'm too exhausted to redo it xD Follow my other Socials: linktr.ee/AutumnSkylar
How Am I Coping With An Ostomy?? | Let's Talk About It
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it's 50/50 tbh, the good moments and the bad. it is very hard to maintain composure when you have a permanent bad attached to you. But I am keeping my head held high and trying to keep up my spirits. I am proud of how far I have come. If you want to follow me on my other platforms, click my link! linktr.ee/AutumnSkylar
Disability In The USA
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Disability In The USA
24 Hours Until Ostomy Surgery | Ostomy Countdown
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24 Hours Until Ostomy Surgery | Ostomy Countdown
6 Days Until Surgery! | Ostomy Countdown
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6 Days Until Surgery! | Ostomy Countdown
I'm Getting Another Surgery
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I'm Getting Another Surgery
You're A Difficult Patient If You're In Pain | Exploring R/EmergencyMedicine
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You're A Difficult Patient If You're In Pain | Exploring R/EmergencyMedicine
Don't Tell Me To "Just Push Yourself"
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Don't Tell Me To "Just Push Yourself"
Do My Psych Meds Make Good ASMR? | Let's Try ASMR
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Do My Psych Meds Make Good ASMR? | Let's Try ASMR
They Won't Do Surgery Because I'm "Too Young"
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They Won't Do Surgery Because I'm "Too Young"
Day In The Chronically Ill Life
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Day In The Chronically Ill Life
Coming Out
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Coming Out
I Almost Died [ Not Clickbate ] | Let's Talk About It
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I Almost Died [ Not Clickbate ] | Let's Talk About It
As The World Caves In - Matt Maltese | Sarah Corthran - Cover
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As The World Caves In - Matt Maltese | Sarah Corthran - Cover
Call For A Ceasefire
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Call For A Ceasefire
My Life Is About To Change Forever
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My Life Is About To Change Forever
My First Time Doing Drag
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My First Time Doing Drag
Creep - Radiohead - Cover by Autumn Skylar
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Creep - Radiohead - Cover by Autumn Skylar
Trying To Save A BumbleBee 🐝
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Trying To Save A BumbleBee 🐝
Disabled By Doctors | Let's Talk About It
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Disabled By Doctors | Let's Talk About It
Baking Cookies From Memory | No Recipes Allowed
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Baking Cookies From Memory | No Recipes Allowed
Reacting To Weird Comments On My Engagement Video
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Reacting To Weird Comments On My Engagement Video
Skincare And Venting
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Skincare And Venting
I Found My Vintage Wedding Dress At Goodwill For Only $20
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I Found My Vintage Wedding Dress At Goodwill For Only $20
How Many Things Can I Stack On My Fiance Before He Wakes Up?
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How Many Things Can I Stack On My Fiance Before He Wakes Up?
I Have A Problem | Dress Try On
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I Have A Problem | Dress Try On
Sublime - Santeria - Autumn Skylar Cover
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Sublime - Santeria - Autumn Skylar Cover
What Is It REALLY Like Being Disabled?
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What Is It REALLY Like Being Disabled?

КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @renemicka730
    @renemicka730 День тому

    Where did you go to get this information? I have the condition and I’d love to be treated by an expert.

  • @fulviodessi359
    @fulviodessi359 2 дні тому

    qualcuno ti ha mandato un angelo

  • @hot88s23
    @hot88s23 2 дні тому

    World's biggest worry-wart! The engagement's OFF!

  • @BostjanBizjak-px9jl
    @BostjanBizjak-px9jl 2 дні тому

    Beautifol suprise like to me ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @JaredGenesis444
    @JaredGenesis444 3 дні тому

    Pretty girl ;) lucky guy for sure

  • @jeromejackson3632
    @jeromejackson3632 3 дні тому

    I know you can't walk but he is your guardian angel

  • @TorkildAndersen
    @TorkildAndersen 9 днів тому

    Jeg fældede en tåre da jeg så det det hvar så smukt

  • @Cullen-no9ly
    @Cullen-no9ly 13 днів тому

    Great job you guys

  • @josephsmith6944
    @josephsmith6944 15 днів тому

    God Bless Them ❤😊😢 !

  • @tiffanyjohnson7876
    @tiffanyjohnson7876 15 днів тому

    I’m like you I have a wheelchair for the doctors appointments but other than that I’m in a walker ❤

  • @Wesablo
    @Wesablo 15 днів тому

    Aw man. I had to watch that back like, 10x. Husbando did a really good job there keeping it together and delivering. Kudos.Congrats.

  • @greyguy69
    @greyguy69 18 днів тому

    Weddings are like a funeral. Either way a life is over. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

  • @josianelucena5223
    @josianelucena5223 18 днів тому

    ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @CarolCriniti-n4h
    @CarolCriniti-n4h 24 дні тому

    TRUE LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL ❤️. PLAY THAT COUNTRY SONG. ‘ I SAVED A YEAR FOR THIS RING, CAN’T WAIT TO SEE IT ON YOUR HAND ‘!

  • @jeffreybishop9478
    @jeffreybishop9478 26 днів тому

    In 1974 in my metal fabrication metallurgy course in college. I made my wife’s gold wedding and engagement rings. I used the ancient way of casting metal. It is called the lost wax casting method. In my machine wood course I turned a rolling pin used in baking. I made it so it would separate with a hidden chamber in it. I put the engagement ring inside the rolling pin. On her farm I gave her clues going from one place to another. She chased after the clues throughout the farm. The clues led her into the her house. I had made her a Cedar hope chest she knew nothing about. I made her some wood spoons and the rolling pin. She was very happy with the hope chest. The hope chest is where a woman would put things into it for her future of the hope of marriage. She picked up the rolling pin and rolled it on the table. She heard something rattling inside the rolling pin. I said to her it looks like it comes apart. I got down on one knee as she handed me the rolling pin and we pulled it apart together. The ring dropped out and I presented it to her. I asked her to marry her. We were married for 45 years until she passed away during Covid. Thank you for sharing your story. Unfortunately we didn’t have a video camera back then to take pictures. Your story brought back good memories💞

  • @pepeshadilay
    @pepeshadilay 27 днів тому

    The one being ableist should have had a KAREN HAIR CUT LOL

  • @pepeshadilay
    @pepeshadilay 27 днів тому

    I hate that this actually educated me !!!

  • @pepeshadilay
    @pepeshadilay 27 днів тому

    Nice rack ..

  • @TomOfQuincy
    @TomOfQuincy 29 днів тому

    BEAUTIFUL ❤️ I see a lot of love there in this video hopefully everything has worked out it seems like I'm seeing this about a year later I'm a complete stranger and I'm sending you love open for the best for you THE COUPLE

  • @KeiserEarnestine
    @KeiserEarnestine Місяць тому

    Great video! It really captured my attention.

  • @jamescarnley6807
    @jamescarnley6807 Місяць тому

    One day... i can't wait ✊️

  • @rabbitcorp.103
    @rabbitcorp.103 Місяць тому

    O my gods dudeee stop tryna save the damn paper and just rip tf open

  • @iamthetinkerman
    @iamthetinkerman Місяць тому

    Lucky guy ❤

  • @daveoful
    @daveoful Місяць тому

    Congratulations ❤

  • @judimonroe4300
    @judimonroe4300 Місяць тому

    I cried like a baby... Many blessings You two... Congratulations

  • @paulblack6796
    @paulblack6796 Місяць тому

    You are American so that makes you a true fighter. My prayers and thoughts are with you always.

  • @paulblack6796
    @paulblack6796 Місяць тому

    Hello my little American friend. It’s great seeing and hearing you again. Lots of love from Ireland

  • @theboss6877
    @theboss6877 Місяць тому

    CONGRATULATIONS ❤

  • @justathought6388
    @justathought6388 Місяць тому

    Huh?

  • @maharaja16
    @maharaja16 Місяць тому

    Very very emotional video . They really love each other ! God Bless them and good luck for marriage !

  • @choward874
    @choward874 Місяць тому

    Probably the two best people and most real people on earth.

  • @s.e.e455
    @s.e.e455 Місяць тому

    Don’t mind me, just bawling like a baby 😭 Congratulations! ❤

  • @glendawest4487
    @glendawest4487 Місяць тому

    Why don’t they lack talking and quickly open present to see what it is huh

  • @richardgreen9330
    @richardgreen9330 Місяць тому

    That is so sweet,,, He accepted her as her and she Accepted him as him,, I wish you both the best of luck, AND GOD BLESS BOTH OF YOU..❤❤❤👍👍👍👌👌👌

  • @stephaniescott294
    @stephaniescott294 Місяць тому

    Awesome Sauce...She never caught on the entire time he was quiet...I love this❤

  • @NikeTaiwo-dk8db
    @NikeTaiwo-dk8db Місяць тому

    Outside against problem people zoom body birthday game oxox😢

  • @janiedavila8370
    @janiedavila8370 Місяць тому

    Aya so sweet.congratulations guys.🎉❤

  • @yashbaheti5336
    @yashbaheti5336 Місяць тому

    Good energy 🌻

  • @richardtirrell1153
    @richardtirrell1153 Місяць тому

    Well done . She loves you so much

  • @stephaneg
    @stephaneg Місяць тому

    I don't think I've seen a woman so in love ever. The way she looks at him... Now that is true love!

  • @kathyjorgensen8875
    @kathyjorgensen8875 Місяць тому

    Shock set in " I'm engaged!" Beautiful proposal, best of luck and congratulations!!!❤

  • @CorinaJoMetzger
    @CorinaJoMetzger Місяць тому

    ❤ Beautiful, Congratulations 🎉🎉

  • @ElectricSoul828
    @ElectricSoul828 Місяць тому

    She loves him, she didn't even look at it. I hope they are doing well.

  • @ce0113
    @ce0113 Місяць тому

    🤢🤮

  • @melaniewalsh2968
    @melaniewalsh2968 Місяць тому

    Lolol omg she's stunned..she loves him so so much

  • @dennisdube2157
    @dennisdube2157 Місяць тому

    First five mins is a tough CSI episode. Last min pure love!!!

  • @Waluigi7891
    @Waluigi7891 Місяць тому

    You have your facts wrong. Nex was the aggressor, and walked away from that incident with no serious injuries. Her death has no reasonable connection to that incident, nor was it caused by any physical trauma. You're calling for prosecution and suffering of innocent kids, the actual victims of that incident. This is what happens when people fall for rage bait and go off without the facts. Also, the claim that Nex was non binary is completely unsubstantiated. It was made up by redditors.

    • @autumnskylardoeseverything
      @autumnskylardoeseverything Місяць тому

      Nex being the "aggressor" comes only from them throwing water onto them after the group has already been harassing them. And how exact did they have no serious injuries when they had to be evaluated for head injury at the ER? And they did in fact have a head injury as a result of what occured. Yes their death was found to be a result from suicide, a fact that came out after I posted this, but that suicide is directly correlated to the events of that day and the harassment they faced. There was another student with them in the bathroom who experienced the harassment as well. The fact you cannot in your small minded defense of these students understand how bullying could result in Nex's death is shocking. And they were openly nonbinary and two spirit. Do your research. This comment is just dripping with judgement

    • @autumnskylardoeseverything
      @autumnskylardoeseverything Місяць тому

      And the fact you can misgender a student who was, again, OPENLY NONBINARY, is disgusting. Take a good look in the mirror and ask yourself if you feel good about the comments you've made here

    • @Waluigi7891
      @Waluigi7891 Місяць тому

      @@autumnskylardoeseverything You obviously didn’t care to look into it deeply, because it already confirmed your bias, and you didn’t want to potentially uncover information that would refute that. Several falsehoods are floating about, including going to the er for head injuries, and the non binary claims (her mother herself said this is baseless). Nex was checked out by the school nurse, went home, then self harmed. There’s no confirmation she had to go to the ER. Even if she did, that doesn’t mean she died as a result of an assault, so you are spreading a lie regardless. And no I’m not misgendering her as that has always been a baseless claim by the internet outrage mob. She is still the one that initially the fight. They weren’t harassing her at the time. No matter how you spin it, Nex was the bad guy in that encounter. To even say the self harm was a direct result of this incident or any past bullying is an assumption at the best, opportunistic weaponization of a tragedy at worst. And to make a more general point, nonbinary people, and the LGBT in general, are actually NOT disproportionately targeted for harassment or violence when you break it down statistically. Some statistics actually suggest they are underrepresented compared to the general population.

  • @Sanji_615
    @Sanji_615 Місяць тому

    Bro is lucky to have her ❤

  • @kathryncallinan534
    @kathryncallinan534 Місяць тому

    Beautiful ❤

  • @kbradford2270
    @kbradford2270 Місяць тому

    So we have to have the dand have a video for your fans which you two are going to have ton of god bless your union