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breathingreflection
Приєднався 31 лип 2006
Entropath - "Call and Answer"
A name for an extreme project I've had going in my head for a long time. Lots of stuff has happened since. Here's something that came out of me after my collapse and explosion of anger and grief over so many things, but in particular the abandonment of me by my last local friend, who behaved in the most uncharacteristic way.
Betrayer.
Betrayer.
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Knocked Loose's "Suffocate" first riff, and a guitar cover of Morbid Angel's "Blood on My Hands"
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Knocked Loose's "Suffocate" first riff, and a guitar cover of Morbid Angel's "Blood on My Hands"
What CPTSD processing and grief can look like
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Grieving CPTSD is absolutely essential for healing. I don't really want to do it, but I have no choice. I am not in danger and I am safe and not s dal. I wanted to post this so that people could see it, and maybe feel seen and helped. Lots of sobbing incoming.
CPTSD: Take Me As I Am, "Failure", and the DBT TIPP skill
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Talk about the Unsexy Headband, taking who I am as I am, Dream Theater, Hatebreed, and the value of ending your hot shower with a cold shower.
CPTSD: The Things I Couldn't Speak..But Can Play
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I'm thinking of, rather pretentiously, calling this budding CPTSD series "CPTSD & the Art of Guitar Playing", but 1) I'm nowhere near good enough a guitarist for that; 2) it just sounds hokey; and 3) it's a blatant inspirational ripoff of Robert Pirsig.
CPTSD, Alcohol, and Guitar
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A talk about how I went from recording music to a big hole, and how I'm climbing out of it again.
I FEEL LIBERATED. Post-hospitalization first real guitar playing,
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I FEEL LIBERATED.
An Eternity Deposed: 1) The Verge...2) Deject
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A hand on the door is enough The vibration learned by rote It calls me to your world of emptiness I know what is beyond But this thrall is drawn To your stone visage once again Yours, for all the light never shown, Would be the mouth of a mime If it did not mutter my exasperation Every dreaded morning Shame pushing my eyes to the floor As resolute As final as the blow That breaks her body Over ...
Metallica - Dyers Eve (guitar cover)
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Metallica - Dyers Eve guitar cover. A few mistakes but deal with it. Originally written by James Hetfield. Originally performed by James Hetfield, Kirk Hammett, Jason Newsted, Lars Ulrich.
An Eternity Deposed: Impulse Narrative
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Lyrics: To my ears the accursed chatter Verbal juxta-fixation The why and wherefore slipped by the first volley Brushing the ledge in skirmish unechoed before veiled decent to the bowels of treachery Mercurial catalyst A whimsied artifice culled from the constant iteration of a mind removed redacted cleaved from the moment's ravings I must offer this defense As the court cannot be pleased I am ...
Damage Inc cover (with solo and debauchery)
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Improv solo followed by the cover. Sorry you can't see my left hand during portions of the improv. Filmed on an iPhone 3GS so pardon the quality.
Blood on My Hands guitar cover (Morbid Angel)
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Blood on My Hands guitar cover (Morbid Angel)
*NEW MUSIC* Styrkenor - 3) Metastatic
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*NEW MUSIC* Styrkenor - 3) Metastatic
*NEW MUSIC* Styrkenor - 1) The Echo of Decades, & 2) Eminent Transgressor
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*NEW MUSIC* Styrkenor - 1) The Echo of Decades, & 2) Eminent Transgressor
The Loss and Curse of Reverence FULL INSTRUMENTATION cover
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The Loss and Curse of Reverence FULL INSTRUMENTATION cover
Thus Spake the Nightspirit cover (Ihsahn)
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Thus Spake the Nightspirit cover (Ihsahn)
Emperor With Strength I Burn Cover (Ihsahn)
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Emperor With Strength I Burn Cover (Ihsahn)
Emperor Curse You All Men! Cover (Ihsahn)
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Emperor Curse You All Men! Cover (Ihsahn)
Death and Clean Vox: Suffocation and Nevermore
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Death and Clean Vox: Suffocation and Nevermore
That Was Just Your Life cover (with solo)
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That Was Just Your Life cover (with solo)
I was watching your last video and the are no words to describe the overwhelming feeling that I felt when you said “my parents are not bad people they were just bad parents”. It’s been a few months since I was diagnosed with CPTSD + OCD and during this healing process I found the Crappy Childhood Fairy channel here in UA-cam and it’s been a life changing experience, I really recommend it and follow her daily practice (writing and meditating). Hope this helps, sending you internet hugs and sorry for my English it’s not my mother language.
Thank you for this. I'd also like to say that, whenever someone says they are sorry for their English because it's not their mother language, and then I read the paragraph again, it's routinely better English than most people I've seen where English *is* their mother language :)
@@breathingreflectionhaha thanks! I’m trying my best
I'm glad you shared this. We have had some similar experiences. I'm trying to choose healthier escapes, but it is a challenge. Enjoying the exercise of my treadmill and a movie, rather than booze and a movie. I have EMDR tomorrow to keep becoming more at peace with my trauma. The alcohol has definitely been a surrogate for "love" for me. I recognized that I was avoiding people, dating, etc for the last 20 years. People have literally thrown themselves at me, and it feels so good at first, and then the fear of future suffering sets in, I guess? Re: Guitar. I play free improvisation music with a group of people. I answered a flyer for one band, and met these free improv people, and it just happened... that was 15 years ago. There are sort of no wrong notes sometimes, and it is very freeing. It was hella uncomfortable in the beginning, but I'm also into taking risks for art, so it kept coming for me. It might be interesting as a from of art therapy for you. Funnily enough, I've had some burnout from it recently, because things started to get too serious in the "scene", lol, and I have been considering quitting, but I am instead just putting more boundaries in place on how much I dedicate to other people when reciprocity is not equal.
My issue is that I don't work well with others at all when it comes to a lot of things--there are so many trauma triggers. But with music I'm extremely personal, and often fear sharing it because 1) I'm afraid no one will notice or care or 2) I'm afraid people *will* notice and care, and then I have to make a connection. Connection has always been very hard for me, but I do want it. Ain't CPTSD grand?
Watching this again just now, I was unduly harsh with myself about it. It took a lot to play this and still does.
Thanks a lot. This is what I get for never promoting myself, because I have no money.
Wow. This is 11 years on. I currently don't have the equipment to record more. I still like the same music.
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Pause this video at the very very beginning. I just noticed me with a guitar.
Over 10 years later. I hear myself excusing myself for being human. Enough of that shit.
Thinking of you, Dave.
Yeah, I realize I'm playing the main riff wrong. I've learned.
Welp, I'd like to see the detractors do what I did here.
Thank you to you the 3 people who disliked this video.
I have a feeling I'd have to pay to promote my playing. Fuck that.
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Wow, this was 10 fucking years ago.
Reason.
Coward
My two Favorite bands Emperor and Opeth
You kind of really really butchered the song. This was a long time ago, you should record it again.
Too bad I don't particularly give a shit right now.
great bro
Great job dude!
This is rad.
Hell yeah, those fixed bridge RGs are terribly underrated. They're truly a metalhead's dream guitar. And like you, I've got two of them as well (I thought I was the only one crazy enough to buy two 321s).
The galloping rhythm is correct as is pretty much all the rhythms even though the timing is of course off in spots... the solo could clearly be worked on but there are some criticisms made here that obviously come from people who don't know how the song is played themselves. The trem picked chord progressions during the blasting parts are very awkward with fingerings so all in all I say well done.
+Killing OnAdrenaline Yeah, I made a good number of mistakes. I find Ihsahn's chord choices to be pretty darn bizarre, and the speed of the middle/endish part was hard to keep up with. But I put up the vid anyway. Thanks for the observations and positive comments :)
Awesome execution! Almost had a group that were going to cover this live, but the guitar players didn't want to take it on. Still learned it on drums.
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Lee Anderson You did? Congratulations! Hope it didn't hurt too much.
that's great! other than making performances to you tube; do you recorded as well at clubs frequently?? side note; I always love playing cajon and contribute with music cooperations with Bandhub, it'd be cool to collab at the site :)
Awesome!
very cool
I'm actually unsure what the model is. I know it's an RG 7-string but I got it many years ago when 7-strings were the rage, and the exact model number isn't on the guitar. Thanks for the praise :)
RG321MH? If so, we have the same guitars! Nice chops too man! I really like how it sounds like it's Trey that's playing!
Thanks for the kudos :)
good work :D
impressive cover. :)
Great performance dude!!! Stay brutal!!
solid effort
mante666 my on indonesian death metal
I love this song, great cover!
Thanks :)
Hell yeah, love this song, excellent execution.
Wonderful! Your way of playing a guitar is great! I love EMPEROR, too. I have also uploaded a movie of "thus spake the nightspirit". Please check it out my movie.
You rock man!
Good cover, man! :D
Nope.
Do you play in band?
I printed the solo tab from songsterr as a PDF: valtinho.com/downloads/Emperor-With-Strength-I-Burn-Solo.pdf
Yes, I recorded this with a dumb ancient camera, and never bothered to re-record. But you made me laugh heartily this morning, so I call that a win :).
my left ear loves this. my right ear is forever alone :(
Sorry to burst your bubble, but I didn't. This is was done with probably about 20 tracks using Sonar 3. I'd LOVE to be able to play this song and sing it at the same time, though.