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Sometimes I sleep too much rather than the other way around. It's like my body is sleeping for energy to make up for not eating. I also tend to have a reasonable amount of energy in the morning and by the end of the afternoon I feel like death. I won't get into detail about what I do eat. You get it.

There is also fatshaming on internet and appearanceshaming and making others rediculous about appearance and clothes and what they wear and there are also toxic infuences from magazines. An innocent comment can be enough. Making others feel bad to feel good about themselves because they are frustrated or undeveloped and immature childisch. Competition from a toxic environment. It is as if it is never good enough. Be good for your self. I hope people get inspiration.

Ole Video I’m sure you’ve helped some people with this brave and transparent video! I hope you doing well in 2024

Gulden’s on everythinggggg (by everything I mean cucumbers and celery) ♥️✨Thank you for sharing your story 🤍✨

Thank you for being brave and courageous for sharing your story❤

Thank you so much. You described it perfectly. I am stunned to have found this video so many years later. This is what I am experiencing right now.

you’ve basically just explained my life right now, it’s actually made me cry 😢 I hate having this illness I’m awaiting treatment from mental health but I don’t feel hopeful that anyone can change me I feel trapped, i’m currently very underweight but in my head I think i’m fat still :(

Oh my God! Thank you

Thank you for sharing your story & strength. Your story is similar to my best friend Tresa's story. She was married for 15 years, he was a musician, cheated on her, denied divorcing her for the other woman. It absolutely broke her spirit. Sadly she never recovered and she ended her life in 2020. Thank you for continuing to be strong & working through your struggles & for sharing with the world.

This was incredibly brave of you to post. I've followed your account for YEARS and always thought you were such a badass, and of course had no idea of what went on behind the veneer of social media. You're, like, this powerful and intimidatingly beautiful person and for outside observers it's perhaps impossible to think of you experiencing betrayal, and hopelessness, and all the things the rest of us experience on the regular. To hear you be so brutally honest and ACCOUNTABLE is just awe-inspiring. I'm so, so sorry for what happened to you. But thank you for sharing this. Your honesty is truly humbling and I'm going through similar things in my own relationship and I found what you said incredibly empowering and helped me immensely. Also, the way you say "veh-hi-cule" is super cute.

You're a warrior. I hate that this happened to you, but you're thriving and so strong. Thank you for your authenticity and vulnerability. I hope you continue to bloom!

Your so amazing and you will always be amazing you seem like a person who will last long forever in life non stop I love your humanity your very strong ❤

I experienced something very similar in 2011 and even though I’m now married and happier than ever, I still get angry when I think about my ex sometimes. I’ve realized I’ll probably always be angry about what he did because it was objectively not okay. But that anger doesn’t occupy space in me the same way anymore. I don’t forgive him but I also just don’t really care anymore either because my life is better in every possible way. Many years of therapy also helped.

#Boss I love your authenticity. Over and over you put yourself out there. I truly believe that as much as this is healing for you it is also healing and helpful for others. Thank you for sharing your truth. Love you, girl ❤️

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i am so happy to see you on UA-cam. i have followed your story from way back. You have such an engaging presence and your strength is formidable. This is just my intuition, but some men need their partner to be in a victim state, and cannot resonate with the Goddess architype. Thank you for your vulnerability

Divorce is an mf'er. Way to chin up and see the brighter side... the healthier side. ; )

Hang in there ur very strong person. It’s the end of the beginning

it [divorce] is a painful thing to live through and rebuilding is rough. you are a stronger person now and should be proud of yourself hugz

Where did you go? Please do an update

This was so good, I wish more people could see this. So many people have this, it’s much more prevalent than people know. It deserves so many more views. ❤️

omg u described purging perfectly it sucks so bad

I can relate to some degree. I fast constantly then when I do eat, it’s only small portions of vegetarian keto food. Yet I still purge because I’m constantly wanting to lose more weight. The guilt is always there no matter what or how little I eat

You are very courageous. Did you hear about people who go « All in » like Stephanie Buttermore and other people ? I believe this is the only way to get out of bulimia or anorexia.

When you are in the hospital with a heart attack you call me

Thank you so much for sharing your story💗

am i the only one who feel even worse after purging bcus you basically jus wasted money

Sweetheart, you are looking to Fill a void only Jesus can fill. Our problems will NEVER go away, but having Jesus helps you to deal with them better.....knowing we do not have to depend on our own strength makes all the difference! I feel your pain, only because I have walked in it (and still walking in it) I have come to accept that when I am weak I am strong. God shines through our weakness. Remember you will always have problems In this life but God came and conquered them just for you! Accept Jesus Christ as your savior Hun, you will never think the same way again.

Take it from a veteran, the aspartame and sugar subs does effect you as you get older (40s) eating disorders altogether messes your whole mind up, the chemicals in your brain go whack and you become a mental mess, I have never had a normal relationship with a man. Get help and stay in counseling we are this way for a reason, something happened along the way to Hotwire our brains, if you do not reach out it will find a way to come back and take over.

That journal entry...girl can WRITE! Hope you find a more positive headspace to use your talent from.

This is so beautiful <3

“i loved it even though i hated it” this is what it exactly feels like

I didn’t have internet back in the day when I was doing this,I made a video on how I recovered from this nightmare

You remind me so much of my cousin Rosey

Such a brave and strong girl! So glad you’re doing better :) You have such a relaxing voice by the way!

it's been so extremely hard for me to admit to myself that my eating disorder has shifted from anorexia to bulimia. back when I was "just restricting" i would get this fasting high and feel successful and proud and in control even though deep inside i was still miserable. now i'm just disgusted by myself, by the amounts of food i eat, by the constant smell of vomit, by the wreck my mind and my body have become. in a way, being bulimic feels like failing at both being anorexic and being healthy. it's this awful middle ground and it sucks and yet I'm too scared to give it up.

thank you. you saved me from an eating disorder. like honestly. thank you.

Thanks for sharing this. You're singing my song-literally.

Huge thank you for sharing

Thank you for making this, you’ve helped me so much and I’m sure many others, you’re amazing xxx

Course...just talking, no showing. 😒

This story was the only one I’ve ever watched that was helpful and relatable instead of triggering triggering. Well done

So much love to you Erika. I've been following your account for years and it has really helped me through my own eating and body image issues. Hugs

Hi Thankyou for addressing the pain issues. I can soo relate . I have Ehlers Danlos syndrome which sounds exactly like your symptoms so I had to completely stop being a physical person ( which was my sense of identity and happiness). It took me 6 months to realise I couldn’t be a yoga teacher any more cos the pain was so intense I had to have huge amounts of meds accupuncture osteo and tried absolutely everything. I am now having a Q L tear relapse and it means that I have to spend huge amounts of money and not be able to work. Luckily I own my own business but have difficulty finding staff with the same work ethic as me so I have to often step in and sacrifice myself ... I totally understand this disorder . I think we connected on IG at one point and I really appreciate your friendliness. Saturn was a hard task master last year and currently reminding us of our restrictions. I’m proud of you and proud of myself for how much growth 2019 has provided.. I actually have gratitude for the EDS but it is also my biggest teacher.. Much love xo

Thank you beautiful girl for sharing love from Australia xx God bless ❤❤

God, this hit home hard, this is all what I'm feeling right now. I just dont feel valid bc I'm healthy a weight .

I throw up in a plastic bag in the privacy of my room. I do it for 2 years now. No one knows. I wolds die of embarrassment if someone knew. The every thought of my family finding out scares me. But I can't give up my binging-purging.

Thank you so much for sharing this video, you are so brave and incredibly beautiful both inside and out, when you read in this video what you had written in your journal I’ve never before felt such a connection with just exactly how you worded this, I feel I sometimes wish I could just slip away and not wake up because this miserable pitiful existence is just continuous, for me it’s bulimia then to starving and back to binge and purge and I was the one that willingly started and entered this hell basically 😔but once again thank you so much for such an accurate and honest description of eating disorder existence, you’re inspirational x

You said a lot of true things "I Love it and I hate it" "You think you are thinking about everyone else first but it's all about yourself" I hope that one day I'll make the the ED Voice don't shout louder than These thruths

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