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"I hope you make it to the day you're 28 years old."
Media: Tokyo Revengers
Music: Colors (Stripped) by Halsey
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mersey_dri
HELLOOOOOO, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY, SO HAPPY 29 TO ME.
I started this video on the 11th of December and I cut everything I had to cut and then I showed it to my bro and he was like,,, "but how long is this?" and I told him around 2 minutes and he asked if I could finish it on time - at first I wasn't serious about this cause I find lame making myself a birthday video,, but once he said it, it was over cause I was pissed off. LMAO. I am not fucking celebrating today cause I told everyone that they gotta stay the fuck away but I wouldn't fucking edit it today 'cause I wanted it to be up the fucking time I was born and I know I am born in the morning SO YE STEFANO. I FINISHEDDDDDDDD (though you said you didn't mean it as "you won't be able to do it" DOESNT MATTER LMAO)
There is a lot in this video to explain and I ain't gonna fucking do it but I want to point out that at first, I wanted to divide it into grey/blue parts but then I remembered a quote from Inside Out - I love this movie cause it brings me back to a specific time of my life & I watched it with a lot of people I love & I remember at ANY scene Sadness would appear everyone kept telling me "Luisa, she's so you" (accurate really, LMAO) point is the movie serves to deliver the idea that there is no sadness without happiness but there isn't any happiness without sadness either. You aren't able to appreciate hope if you don't feel despair but you also don't know how to get out of despair if you haven't experienced hope. Since I have always connected to color blue with the idea of hope, I kept on using it because even in the "grey" moments hope is there, you just have to remember that you're your light. I honestly love the fact that the entire fucking movie is about accepting and allowing yourself to feel all of your emotions, even the ones that may be labelled as wrong, cause that's what growing up means -- I CRY. I LOVE IT. So I was like "you know what, we go for it 'cause it always warms your heart to think about it."
EXTRASSSS. I recently told to Tiz that I'd allow Ken to get me pregnant and I absolutely don't want kids and I struggle a lot with being touched and touching others so I am here like it's insane I can even joke about it so like FUCK YOU KEN FOR REACHING PETER'S IMPORTANCE TO ME. I HATE YOU. HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE ONLY ONE,, WHY ARE YOU THERE TOO.
I want to dedicate it to Tiz cause back in October she was a baby waifu as usual and asked my permission to make a video for my birthday and got a no for a third year in a row (I am sorry, I love you but thanks for always being considerate of my feelings x3) & for always trying to make me happy on this day even though I've been legit blocking you from doing it for so many years now edfgsfadf IM SORRY - but you were legit the only one who never complained nor made a fuss about it & it meant a lot to me, cause it doesn't make me feel like I have to force myself to be happy when I am not. (This is not part of your punishment so keep on being scared cause I'll fucking destroy you for having tested my feelings by saying you weren't "that" important & nope you aren't forgiven yet - it will take a lot of spam on my part until you're dead on the ground, love you endlessly).
ALSO YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN BY SAYING IT'S MY BIRTHDAY CAUSE SINCE ITS MY DAY WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY IS GIVING THIS TO YOU BUAHAHAHAHAH.
www.youtube.com/@TizAMVs