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Wow my ex-husband used to do that for me when he was in the service as well with my own bank account separated. That was before I ruined that relationship. I was 25 back then when I "broke" and was diagnosed with "culture shock" fast-forward to now age 39 and possible bipolar 2. If I actually had parents that believed in Psychiatry and paid attention to me, they would have known this before I got to that point at age 25 then misdiagnosed with GAD, OCD, and Major depressive disorder instead until now.

I don't know if this is me projecting, but I feel like I can see SO MUCH of my current self in you during this video. I have Hashimoto's, which can cause brain fog and anxiety, and it seems to be exacerbating my ADHD. This has taken several forms over the past year and a half, but lately, my brain has often felt like those things they choose to pick lottery numbers, where the balls bounce around rapidly. Yes, I think you're talking more quickly in this video, but it sounds to me like you're intentionally slowing down to try to piece your thoughts into actual communication. Sometimes I do this, and when I do, I think my face probably looks a lot like yours in this video--eyes slightly wider, eyes darting around as if they're trying to follow those bouncing lottery balls. Other times, my speech has been eerily slow because it's as if words fall out of my head the instant I need them, like when something is on the tip of your tongue, but more intense. Anyway, back to the point, I *think* it's thyroid-fueled ADHD that's making my brain feel so jumbled to begin with, and it slows any actual progress down dramatically, which triggers anxiety. I only have physical symptoms of anxiety, not the thought patterns, but it's still like another background app in my brain, taking up more resources, which makes my brain more jumbled...and I start feeling a little frantic, something similar to feeling desperate, but not quite. That may not be what you're feeling, but that's what I'm recognizing. ...And I rambled all over the place, but like you, I'm going to leave it as an example, since I think many of your viewers will come for an understanding of mental illness. In fact, I wish I had something like this to explain it to my coworkers. They haven't complained, but this particular behavior has been relatively recent for me, and a lot has been hidden by working at home for the past few months. When I do something like take way too long to respond to an email, or have to ask questions about things they've already explained, I want to tell them that it's ADHD and that I'm working on it, but I'm afraid it will sound like "I wasn't paying attention, but I'll try harder." And sure, that's not something to be judgmental about with ADHD, but I get that it's difficult to understand. But that's not what's going on, anyway. It's just that I can't filter out what's important and what isn't, and I can't write an email that makes sense when I can't look at the the five paragraphs that should have been 3 sentences and know what is and isn't relevant. I'm sure it also sounds like complaining or requests for sympathy. But it's mostly just upsetting when it's interfering with things I want or need to do. In times like this, I mostly think it's *interesting,* to the point that a counselor has wondered whether it's a weird form of dissociation, like I'm observing my emotions and behaviors rather than experiencing them. She seems to have decided that even if it is, it appears to be doing more good than harm, so it isn't really a priority. I really didn't mean for this to be a novel! The point I really wanted to make is about how similar our experiences can seem, even when they're coming from entirely different places. I'm not sure whether I made that point at all...